waiting in line
nah, its not really the (crush) thing that is bugging me. It is more the frustration that I feel like God has brought me to a certain point....kind of like when you wait in line to get on a really cool ride, and you are waiting and waiting and being patient, and eating cotton candy and just generally entertaining yourself, and then you get right up to the platform, and you know your turn is soon ....you can see the ride coming....but for some reason, either the ride is temporarily out of service, or he keeps putting other people on it...kind of like how they ask for 2 or 3 to fill out cars and i am waiting for my 2-for partner to come along so we can get on. i want more distractions if i cannot have what i want.....and like a child looking into the toy store across the street, i see the toy i want to play with, and i am not allowed to have it.....it's on clearance, for gosh's sake -- i know i could afford it, but.....*sigh* he won't bring it to me (and i cannot get out of line. i have waited sooo long)....so i sit there, with the sticky melted cotton candy, and my worn out ticket stub, waiting for the ride and looking at the toy in the shop across the street and i am just barely NOT throwing a temper tantrum, because i KNOW he is a good daddy and I WILL get to ride the ride and I will get the best toy in the shop, but dammit if i am not tired of waiting.