i need to throw up
well i kept telling myself this will get worse before it gets better. we've reached the "worse" part of the equation. all i can do is wait and see if the "better" part ever comes.
sure, it needed to happen. sure, better to know now then keep myself in this longer than i need to. sure, he wants to live honestly and part of that is being honest about everything to everyone.
so why do i feel so sad and lonely and scared? i sure can talk the talk, but i'm not doing the walk part all so well. i keep trying to tell myself that we will make it through this. but karma is a bitch, isn't it? why would i think i'm so immune? what really makes my situation different from all the rest? i guess we'll have to see.
sure, it needed to happen. sure, better to know now then keep myself in this longer than i need to. sure, he wants to live honestly and part of that is being honest about everything to everyone.
so why do i feel so sad and lonely and scared? i sure can talk the talk, but i'm not doing the walk part all so well. i keep trying to tell myself that we will make it through this. but karma is a bitch, isn't it? why would i think i'm so immune? what really makes my situation different from all the rest? i guess we'll have to see.