wow i need to update.
i got this over the summer because regan convinced me... i have to admit i'm not the type to keep up with this thing. i had a xanga waaaaay back, but i never kept up with that either. i guess i just don't have the knack for this type of thing. by how much i talk, you would think i would love this blogging thing, but i dont know... it just hasnt clicked for me yet. but i also have to admit, it does have a relaxing and calming effect to it.
here goes nothing.
i guess i have a small piece that has been bugging me. boy have things changed since senior year of high school. i think about who my friends were, what i was involved with, i now have a boyfriend (whom i have been with for over a year), i'm a quarter away from the midpoint of college, im 20!, i'm living on my own (well sorta), i work... sooo many things have changed. and along the way i've defnitely some long last friendships, and as a result - i've also lost some. i guess its a part of life, and a part of growing. my closest friendships back then have somewhat faded, and even with close friends here in irvine - i still feel like i'm missing something that i lost.
i wish it wasn't awkward. i wish that night never happened. i wish i could have kept my best girl friends and gained a boyfriend as well. i wish i didn't have to worry about them being in the same room. and i wish i didn't pretend everything was ok when it wasn't.
but in the end, whats done is done. i have to let go of what i hoped and wanted to happen, and face reality of what did happen - and just count my blessings for the people still in my life.
and on another note, don't ever forget to tell your loved ones that you love them. and don't neglect your elders as they get older. in these past few days i lost my uncle paping. i didn't know him very well, but he was my grandpa's cousin. and losing my grandpa at such a young age, my uncle paping reminded me so much of my own grandpa. his death comes kind of suddenly and just reminds me of how important it is to live life and to treasure the people in your life, because you just never know. you aren't guaranteed a tomorrow.
alright, i think thats it for now.
♥ trish
here goes nothing.
i guess i have a small piece that has been bugging me. boy have things changed since senior year of high school. i think about who my friends were, what i was involved with, i now have a boyfriend (whom i have been with for over a year), i'm a quarter away from the midpoint of college, im 20!, i'm living on my own (well sorta), i work... sooo many things have changed. and along the way i've defnitely some long last friendships, and as a result - i've also lost some. i guess its a part of life, and a part of growing. my closest friendships back then have somewhat faded, and even with close friends here in irvine - i still feel like i'm missing something that i lost.
i wish it wasn't awkward. i wish that night never happened. i wish i could have kept my best girl friends and gained a boyfriend as well. i wish i didn't have to worry about them being in the same room. and i wish i didn't pretend everything was ok when it wasn't.
but in the end, whats done is done. i have to let go of what i hoped and wanted to happen, and face reality of what did happen - and just count my blessings for the people still in my life.
and on another note, don't ever forget to tell your loved ones that you love them. and don't neglect your elders as they get older. in these past few days i lost my uncle paping. i didn't know him very well, but he was my grandpa's cousin. and losing my grandpa at such a young age, my uncle paping reminded me so much of my own grandpa. his death comes kind of suddenly and just reminds me of how important it is to live life and to treasure the people in your life, because you just never know. you aren't guaranteed a tomorrow.
alright, i think thats it for now.
♥ trish