Moving on, growing up

[trisha00agent]

It's weird the way that ex's try to remove you from their lives. I guess I understand; apparently you can't get chicks if you still have pics of your ex-wife on your page. However, how do you escape your past? Not sure. I guess if you're desperate for a new relationship (or just horny), you try to appeal to as many people as possible, and I guess admitting you have an ex-wife is a turn-off. But also, the redeeming quality is that I'm a bitch and a whore because I cheated, and that's why we got divorced...right? That's the only reason .....right? Because people don't need a reason to cheat. It's because they are selfish and can never be satisfied.....and as far as everyone else is concerned, you are an angel. Maybe I just need to get it all out: all I ever asked for was love and support while I was working three jobs, volunteering, and going to school to give us a better life. I begged you to give me what I needed, and you just were never there, even when I cried out to you. Instead you told me how worthless my education and altruism were, and that working three jobs is nothing to bitch about, while you expected me to support you while you followed your dreams. I've often been told I wear my heart on my sleeve, and when people at work or school politely ask if we could talk or if they could offer me a hug, I wonder why it isn't my husband offering. Perhaps I didn't communicate, but while I try to cry myself to sleep in bed and you blindly roll over and crash, I begin to wonder why I ever married you in the first place.

Sorry, I'm bitter still, and that is the last I will ever utter about it. Four years is a bitch to get over.

Went to a really fun dueling piano bar with Dennis on Saturday in Auburn. Drank, got hit on by weird people, sang rock songs and danced. It was great.