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i almost left him yesterday. he is everything to me and i hope i can learn to trust him again. if not, then i can't put myself through another relationship in which i am always paranoid and always anxious.
i couldn't stop crying yesterday, and even as a write this, i am still crying. i'm surprised there is anything left in my body to cry out.
i wish i hadn't been so mentally fucked over by someone. i am well over that relationship, but the scars are still with me and still affect me so long after. i wish i earned enough to live by myself because i crave solitude. i am so sick of people asking if am ok.. it makes it so much harder to keep it together.
i couldn't stop crying yesterday, and even as a write this, i am still crying. i'm surprised there is anything left in my body to cry out.
i wish i hadn't been so mentally fucked over by someone. i am well over that relationship, but the scars are still with me and still affect me so long after. i wish i earned enough to live by myself because i crave solitude. i am so sick of people asking if am ok.. it makes it so much harder to keep it together.