Love Below..
Hey, havent wrote
an update in a 'lil
'n im so extremly bored
that i thought i would..
Went for a run today. It was
realli' cold 'n dark out, 'n
i got so freaked out runnin
home by myself since my neighbors
are like 5 miles away. I dunno what
exactly made me get up and run 'ta
the cemetary 'n back..but im glad
i finally for off my assss.
Today is such an upside down day..ha.
Everythins kinda upside down 'n the
opposite. Mmmm Hmm. Maybbi i was
wrong for the past year +. Maybii
i need to grow up. Or maybii
im juss stupid 'n dont know
what the fuck im doin. haha.
I think i dont wanna change what
i havent gotten myself into
the past year or so because im
acually realli scared. Yeahh maybe
thats it. I realli dont know, maybe
i shouldent even be thinking about
it, but im so incredibly confused.
I dunno if it's just "one of those days
where i want something 'n do it but then the
next couple days i'll be like.." what
the fuck did i do I realli dont even
wanna talk 'bout it or wanna deal w.
anything that deals w. it. But its
the only thing on my mind and all i
can think about.
I really dont want ta
go to school tomorrow cuz
i dont wanna think about
all this stupid shit. But
not goin ta school isnt going
to solve it or whatever. I
know that i shouldent get
myself into it, because it always
ends up how i def. didnt plan it.
And i know im going to say to myself
"oo, well maybii this 1 will be dif."
"maybii it'll turn out totally fuckin awesome"
but realli know it wont, and it dosent.
It never ever does. So why should i
even bother getting into all that
again? EXP. starting over w. the
last person i ended with? Yeah
thats pretti fuckin stupid, rite.
I hope im rite. Maybii i should juss
tell em how i want it, and thats it.
Ughh..but then its not all about myself,
and is realli selfish.
Mm Hmm..haha But anyway..
Wednesday we got off!! =)
Whats everyone doin? I totally
need something 'ta do now. Shopping?
Sleepover? Party? What'cha wanna do?
Im def. sleeping in cuz i've been
sooo tired the past week. Ugh i love
sleep. Mm hmm..the down comforterrr'
Niice. Absout'ly love it_<3
Maybii i should 'juss get
high all the fucking tyme.
=p
an update in a 'lil
'n im so extremly bored
that i thought i would..
Went for a run today. It was
realli' cold 'n dark out, 'n
i got so freaked out runnin
home by myself since my neighbors
are like 5 miles away. I dunno what
exactly made me get up and run 'ta
the cemetary 'n back..but im glad
i finally for off my assss.
Today is such an upside down day..ha.
Everythins kinda upside down 'n the
opposite. Mmmm Hmm. Maybbi i was
wrong for the past year +. Maybii
i need to grow up. Or maybii
im juss stupid 'n dont know
what the fuck im doin. haha.
I think i dont wanna change what
i havent gotten myself into
the past year or so because im
acually realli scared. Yeahh maybe
thats it. I realli dont know, maybe
i shouldent even be thinking about
it, but im so incredibly confused.
I dunno if it's just "one of those days
where i want something 'n do it but then the
next couple days i'll be like.." what
the fuck did i do I realli dont even
wanna talk 'bout it or wanna deal w.
anything that deals w. it. But its
the only thing on my mind and all i
can think about.
I really dont want ta
go to school tomorrow cuz
i dont wanna think about
all this stupid shit. But
not goin ta school isnt going
to solve it or whatever. I
know that i shouldent get
myself into it, because it always
ends up how i def. didnt plan it.
And i know im going to say to myself
"oo, well maybii this 1 will be dif."
"maybii it'll turn out totally fuckin awesome"
but realli know it wont, and it dosent.
It never ever does. So why should i
even bother getting into all that
again? EXP. starting over w. the
last person i ended with? Yeah
thats pretti fuckin stupid, rite.
I hope im rite. Maybii i should juss
tell em how i want it, and thats it.
Ughh..but then its not all about myself,
and is realli selfish.
Mm Hmm..haha But anyway..
Wednesday we got off!! =)
Whats everyone doin? I totally
need something 'ta do now. Shopping?
Sleepover? Party? What'cha wanna do?
Im def. sleeping in cuz i've been
sooo tired the past week. Ugh i love
sleep. Mm hmm..the down comforterrr'
Niice. Absout'ly love it_<3
Maybii i should 'juss get
high all the fucking tyme.
=p