Tears
Life fell apart. I fucked up everything. I have never seen anyone want to hang up with me so bad when I am this depressed. Well fuck you too, I am so tired of trying. I need someone to talk to and you won't listen. You were the last person too. Well guess what, I so fucking tired of hurting. You hurt to? Good for you. Will you at least listen so I don't go pyscho. To late. I'm gone. I'm hurt, and all I want to do is die. Why not kill myself tonight?? Who would notice. "Oh shes been offline for awhile, I bet she just blocked me." "Oh she hasn't called me in awhile, guess her phone is dead." I'm just not even trying. Fuck it, if you won't call me, talk to me, why thikn that you care about me. Why do I even play this silly notion in my head that you care for me? Why counsel people out of suicide when thats all I can think about. What the hell is wrong with you? Why can't you see I care for you deeply. Why do you not even bother? Are you that selfish, do you not even care anymore? I thought you cared, guess I was wrong. Well fuck you too. I can't take this shit anymore, if you want to talk to me, then talk to me. Otherwise, go fuck yourself. I'm not calling you anymore, I'm not saying hi to you anymore, I'm not messaging you anymore. You try it once, maybe you would see that I care. Well fuck it, I don't care about it anymore. I don't care. I just want to die. Why not kill myself, who will miss me? Sure for a few months my parents will be sad, but they will forget. Everyone always forgets about you. Does it even matter anymore? What the fuck is life? What is the purpose except to be tortured. Fuck it I'm gone. I will laugh so hard if you call me up asking for my help when I have a gun to my head. I will sit ther, listen to you, and then bang, all you here is my blood going across the floor. Give a fuck about me for once, I'm tired of being alone. I have no true friends, no friends who give a fuck enough to listen to me. I'm tired of it. I'm tired. I'm leaving.