fuck the Holidays
Okay.. you know what... I'm sick of this.
Why do all of my friends make plans with eachother, and then leave me as an afterthought? ... Is that all I am anymore? I ask you what you're up to this weekend. But of course, you already have plans... And sometimes I invite myself along but then I just feel like some loser in the background.
...Some of you really feed on my insecurities. If you're going to block me, at least tell me why. If you're going to call me a horrible friend at least give me reasons, and a chance to change... I know I fuck up a lot. I'm sorry. I'm trying to be a good person, but your constant reassurances of how terrible I am aren't helping.
I have a lot to say but I don't feel like pissing anyone off right now, at least not more than I have. Sorry I'm a bad friend.
Why do all of my friends make plans with eachother, and then leave me as an afterthought? ... Is that all I am anymore? I ask you what you're up to this weekend. But of course, you already have plans... And sometimes I invite myself along but then I just feel like some loser in the background.
...Some of you really feed on my insecurities. If you're going to block me, at least tell me why. If you're going to call me a horrible friend at least give me reasons, and a chance to change... I know I fuck up a lot. I'm sorry. I'm trying to be a good person, but your constant reassurances of how terrible I am aren't helping.
I have a lot to say but I don't feel like pissing anyone off right now, at least not more than I have. Sorry I'm a bad friend.