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Title: Are you happy?
Pairing:I refuse to answer!
Summary: If someone asked me if I was happy what would I say? Well I would have to say hell yeah I’m happy.
Author's Note: This is the last chapter! Oh, THANK YOU TO EVERYBODY THAT READ AND REVIEWED!
Disclaimer:I own nothing but this story!
Chapter 1: http://community.livejournal.com/a7x_slashness/1128431.html
Chapter 2: http://community.livejournal.com/a7x_slashness/1147340.html
Chapter 3: http://community.livejournal.com/a7x_slashness/1159982.html
Chapter 4: http://community.livejournal.com/a7x_slashness/1173419.html
If someone asked me if I was happy what would I say? Well I would have to say hell yeah I’m happy.
Yeah I know the past few years have been totally fucked up with all my drug use, my break up with Johnny, Matt and Brian suddenly taking an indefinite hiatus, and Zacky dealing with his "the world is out to get me issues“. All I know is that I’m pretty darn happy.
What can I say about all the crap that has happened? Well explaining things from the beginning will easier to understand. So everyone and everything really started going down hill when my drug use got out of hand. Yeah I know I did lots of fucked up things. I beat Johnny and then disappeared for days at a time. Side note, I do regret everything I ever did to Johnny that caused him pain by the way.
So here is where Zacky falls into the equation. So while I was gone on my little adventures Zacky would come over and take care of Johnny. So from what I know Zacky feel in love with Johnny. I’m not surprised either.
So now Matt and Brian come in to play here. Remember all this happened within months of each other. Apparently matt was tired of Brian's constant stalling of the coming out phase of their relationship so he put the idea of coming out on the table and brain shot it down. But understand Brian is really hush hush about relationships. So coming out to anybody is a big red flag in his book.
Long story short, Matt dropped Brian and 6 months later Zacky and Brain decided to give it ago. This most likely happened after Johnny told Zacky he fell in love with matt. I assume but I don't really know for sure. So again, Johnny and Matt got together and Brian came out to his dad. Should I mention the Matt and Brian went out for about 6 years while Zacky and Brian had being going out for about 6 months. If I was Matt I would feel pretty betrayed but that’s not my place. So know we are all up to speed.
So let us recap. Matt and Johnny are together and have kids, Zacky and Brian are still going strong, and I'm a clean and sober. They all say they’re happy but I can see it in their eyes. They all wish things were different. But hey I'm just an ex junkie so what do I know? All I really know right now is that I am happy and it's because I've come to terms with things in my life. I can't change the past and there is no point in wishing I could change it. I have no choice but to live with the fact that I fucked up a lot and now all I can do is live my life. My only goals in life right now are trying to make myself happy and living my life as clean and sober as possible. So am I happy? Fuck yeah I'm happy.
Pairing:I refuse to answer!
Summary: If someone asked me if I was happy what would I say? Well I would have to say hell yeah I’m happy.
Author's Note: This is the last chapter! Oh, THANK YOU TO EVERYBODY THAT READ AND REVIEWED!
Disclaimer:I own nothing but this story!
Chapter 1: http://community.livejournal.com/a7x_slashness/1128431.html
Chapter 2: http://community.livejournal.com/a7x_slashness/1147340.html
Chapter 3: http://community.livejournal.com/a7x_slashness/1159982.html
Chapter 4: http://community.livejournal.com/a7x_slashness/1173419.html
If someone asked me if I was happy what would I say? Well I would have to say hell yeah I’m happy.
Yeah I know the past few years have been totally fucked up with all my drug use, my break up with Johnny, Matt and Brian suddenly taking an indefinite hiatus, and Zacky dealing with his "the world is out to get me issues“. All I know is that I’m pretty darn happy.
What can I say about all the crap that has happened? Well explaining things from the beginning will easier to understand. So everyone and everything really started going down hill when my drug use got out of hand. Yeah I know I did lots of fucked up things. I beat Johnny and then disappeared for days at a time. Side note, I do regret everything I ever did to Johnny that caused him pain by the way.
So here is where Zacky falls into the equation. So while I was gone on my little adventures Zacky would come over and take care of Johnny. So from what I know Zacky feel in love with Johnny. I’m not surprised either.
So now Matt and Brian come in to play here. Remember all this happened within months of each other. Apparently matt was tired of Brian's constant stalling of the coming out phase of their relationship so he put the idea of coming out on the table and brain shot it down. But understand Brian is really hush hush about relationships. So coming out to anybody is a big red flag in his book.
Long story short, Matt dropped Brian and 6 months later Zacky and Brain decided to give it ago. This most likely happened after Johnny told Zacky he fell in love with matt. I assume but I don't really know for sure. So again, Johnny and Matt got together and Brian came out to his dad. Should I mention the Matt and Brian went out for about 6 years while Zacky and Brian had being going out for about 6 months. If I was Matt I would feel pretty betrayed but that’s not my place. So know we are all up to speed.
So let us recap. Matt and Johnny are together and have kids, Zacky and Brian are still going strong, and I'm a clean and sober. They all say they’re happy but I can see it in their eyes. They all wish things were different. But hey I'm just an ex junkie so what do I know? All I really know right now is that I am happy and it's because I've come to terms with things in my life. I can't change the past and there is no point in wishing I could change it. I have no choice but to live with the fact that I fucked up a lot and now all I can do is live my life. My only goals in life right now are trying to make myself happy and living my life as clean and sober as possible. So am I happy? Fuck yeah I'm happy.