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Title: Are You Happy?
Pairing: Lots of Them
Rating:This striaght up teen if I had to say so myself but i'm not and expert!
Summary: If I asked you if you were happy what would you say?
Disclaimer: I own nothing!
Chapter 1: I'm Content.
If some one asked me if I was happy, I would tell them that I'm perfectly content. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy.
It's just sometimes I wonder if I could be happier. Again I love me life. I have a wonderful husband, Mr. Johnny Christ, and I have 2 beautiful kids. I don't see a mid life crisis happening in the near future.
I love it, but sometimes I miss what I used to have. I had Brian. I loved him to death, still do in some ways. I just don't know where it went wrong.
People who knew we were together always said we were perfect, and people who didn't said we would kill each other. Can't say I blame them, I still have scars from our more serious fights.
But I didn't care, I loved him. Makes me wonder why we were together. We both had reputations, you valued yours a lot more then I did mine. You always said all you had was your pride.
You were wrong, and still are. You have me, you always had me. I'd do anything for you. Shit, I was with you for the better part of a decade. Six years going on seven.
But was I really wrong when I wanted people to know about us? I was tired of telling my family that I hadn't found the right girl yet. I didn't need a girl Brian, all I needed was you.
You freaked out when I even, suggested it. I was tired of living a lie, but you weren't. So that was the end of us. Six years, gone just like that, like it never happened.
So just like that, it went from me and you to me and Johnny. He was there for me when I needed you. Cause three months later, you were with Zacky. And six months later you told your farther that you were with him.
You promised me that one day you would tell your farther you were with me, but as you can see that never happened. I doubt you really cared. Just like I doubt Jimmy cared enough for Johnny. I know he loved Johnny then, probably still does, but he loved his drugs more.
I could tell Johnny was pissed, just like I was when I found out about your little confession. I was fucking heart broken; it was like I never mattered at all, our SIX YEARS to his SIX MONTHS.
Was I not good enough?
But I can't hold it against you. I would like to, I would like to a lot. But you're a grown man, and what you do is your own business.
But I can wonder though. Maybe in another time, another place we would still be together. But for now I'm content.
Cause well, if content is all I can get I'm happy with it.
Pairing: Lots of Them
Rating:This striaght up teen if I had to say so myself but i'm not and expert!
Summary: If I asked you if you were happy what would you say?
Disclaimer: I own nothing!
Chapter 1: I'm Content.
If some one asked me if I was happy, I would tell them that I'm perfectly content. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy.
It's just sometimes I wonder if I could be happier. Again I love me life. I have a wonderful husband, Mr. Johnny Christ, and I have 2 beautiful kids. I don't see a mid life crisis happening in the near future.
I love it, but sometimes I miss what I used to have. I had Brian. I loved him to death, still do in some ways. I just don't know where it went wrong.
People who knew we were together always said we were perfect, and people who didn't said we would kill each other. Can't say I blame them, I still have scars from our more serious fights.
But I didn't care, I loved him. Makes me wonder why we were together. We both had reputations, you valued yours a lot more then I did mine. You always said all you had was your pride.
You were wrong, and still are. You have me, you always had me. I'd do anything for you. Shit, I was with you for the better part of a decade. Six years going on seven.
But was I really wrong when I wanted people to know about us? I was tired of telling my family that I hadn't found the right girl yet. I didn't need a girl Brian, all I needed was you.
You freaked out when I even, suggested it. I was tired of living a lie, but you weren't. So that was the end of us. Six years, gone just like that, like it never happened.
So just like that, it went from me and you to me and Johnny. He was there for me when I needed you. Cause three months later, you were with Zacky. And six months later you told your farther that you were with him.
You promised me that one day you would tell your farther you were with me, but as you can see that never happened. I doubt you really cared. Just like I doubt Jimmy cared enough for Johnny. I know he loved Johnny then, probably still does, but he loved his drugs more.
I could tell Johnny was pissed, just like I was when I found out about your little confession. I was fucking heart broken; it was like I never mattered at all, our SIX YEARS to his SIX MONTHS.
Was I not good enough?
But I can't hold it against you. I would like to, I would like to a lot. But you're a grown man, and what you do is your own business.
But I can wonder though. Maybe in another time, another place we would still be together. But for now I'm content.
Cause well, if content is all I can get I'm happy with it.