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I have not felt this lost or alone in so long. I seriously feel I have no one to open up to or talk to. Okay I suppose there are people, but I feel I wouldn't be able to personally open up to them and tell them what I feel. But really I don't have any thing to complain about, there are things others are going through that are ten times worse and are dealing with them better then I am.
I can think of an exact moment and day in the not so distant past that can count as the turning point in my friendships. It now feels that everything is declining slowly. However maybe it's just everyone going in different directions and me having a hard time dealing with it and the change that comes with it.
However I have been alone most of the past two weeks. I spend my weekend nights driving around alone listening to music.
I go to the movies alone a lot now.
I don't know what to do and that is what probably bothers me the most. I want to just walk around and just keep walking or drive around and just keep driving. Sometimes I just want to hurt myself. Sometimes I feel the urge to get shit faced. I just feel extremely overwhelmed with all that has built up inside of me.
Ugh I wish I knew what to do...
I can think of an exact moment and day in the not so distant past that can count as the turning point in my friendships. It now feels that everything is declining slowly. However maybe it's just everyone going in different directions and me having a hard time dealing with it and the change that comes with it.
However I have been alone most of the past two weeks. I spend my weekend nights driving around alone listening to music.
I go to the movies alone a lot now.
I don't know what to do and that is what probably bothers me the most. I want to just walk around and just keep walking or drive around and just keep driving. Sometimes I just want to hurt myself. Sometimes I feel the urge to get shit faced. I just feel extremely overwhelmed with all that has built up inside of me.
Ugh I wish I knew what to do...