Just an update
Hey...
It´s so hot right now, all I do is lie in the sun for hours until I get dizzy and have to go into the shade. Crazy, but I want a nice tan so bad. :)
Pretty much all I do is staying at home, reading books, and studying for my theoretical test for driver´s training. My dad gave me my first "lesson" in how to drive a car yesterday. I did okay, I guess, considering that I had to drive with stick shift.
I´ve bought this movie called "American Beauty" the other day, because it was cheap and my friend said I´d like it. I watched it yesterday, and it´s very different, but good. If you like movies that are a little creepy in a way, and make you think, you´ll like "American Beauty".
Other than that, nothing has happened. I´m waiting for this certain phone call, but it seems quite hopeless. I will see him today, though, because we are both invited to come over to a friend´s house, that is, if he doesn´t decline because of me. That would show he is the coward I thought he wasn´t, but oh well. Some things are simply not meant for me. I´m starting to accept that fact. I do miss him, though. I managed not to think of him at all times those last days, but only because I occupied myself with other things, but last night I could not sleep, realizing how much I still care about him.
Wow, look at my stupidity, and feel better about yourself. I´m sure you´ll have more self-esteem after reading this, hope my little trick worked.. :)
-Rebecca
P.S. The female protagonist in the movie "American Beauty" says this at one point: "You cannot trust anybody but yourself." - It might be better to consider this before falling in love, and losing all you have...
It´s so hot right now, all I do is lie in the sun for hours until I get dizzy and have to go into the shade. Crazy, but I want a nice tan so bad. :)
Pretty much all I do is staying at home, reading books, and studying for my theoretical test for driver´s training. My dad gave me my first "lesson" in how to drive a car yesterday. I did okay, I guess, considering that I had to drive with stick shift.
I´ve bought this movie called "American Beauty" the other day, because it was cheap and my friend said I´d like it. I watched it yesterday, and it´s very different, but good. If you like movies that are a little creepy in a way, and make you think, you´ll like "American Beauty".
Other than that, nothing has happened. I´m waiting for this certain phone call, but it seems quite hopeless. I will see him today, though, because we are both invited to come over to a friend´s house, that is, if he doesn´t decline because of me. That would show he is the coward I thought he wasn´t, but oh well. Some things are simply not meant for me. I´m starting to accept that fact. I do miss him, though. I managed not to think of him at all times those last days, but only because I occupied myself with other things, but last night I could not sleep, realizing how much I still care about him.
Wow, look at my stupidity, and feel better about yourself. I´m sure you´ll have more self-esteem after reading this, hope my little trick worked.. :)
-Rebecca
P.S. The female protagonist in the movie "American Beauty" says this at one point: "You cannot trust anybody but yourself." - It might be better to consider this before falling in love, and losing all you have...