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Ok. So I had the weirdest experience today. I think that it partly has to do with the fact that I am reading “Crime and Punishment” in my euro lit class. Here goes…
CRIME AND PUNISHMENT - EMILY VERSION
Today in Student Union Darin tells a few people that last Wednesday he found a $20 bill by the double doors to the gym and that he turned it into student services. However, he knows that nobody has picked it up in a week and doubts that anybody will and fears that student services will use the money. He asks a Student Union member to go and say that the money is his so that Darin can have it back because he needs money and no longer has a job. Stupid Emily volunteers to do it because she is friends with Darin, but then gets shaky about the idea because it seems wrong. However, she has already agreed to do so, so she goes to the office and asks student services for the money. She tells the office lady where she lost it and receives the question, “When did you lose this money?” She answers, but the office lady says that there is no money and that she needs to ask her coworkers. After leaving the office, the same lady chases Emily and calls her back. Emily is very worries, just as Raskolnikov was when he was first called down to the police station after having committed the murder. Despite how nervous she is, she remains calm and follows the lady. To her surprise, Emily is presented with an envelope with $20. The office lady said that she needed to check the information Emily provided before “returning” the money, which is why she sent her away. As Emily takes the money, the office lady says, “Believe it or not, a student returned this money saying how hard it was to separate with it. We are so glad that it got into the right hands!” Emily is just about dying on the inside, struggling with her morals, just as Raskolnikov did for weeks after the murder. However, she just smiles and nods, thanking the office lady. Upon giving the money to Darin, Emily feels like shit and promises to never do such a dishonest thing again. She worries that the actual owner of the money will need it and will go looking for it. However, logically this would not happen since it is money and people rarely return it. Besides, it has already been a week since the money was returned and it would be Darin’s problem anyway. But Emily is distraught and everytime she hears the announcements or receives a pass, her heart beats a little faster because she feels guilty. It is practically Raskolnikov in a modern, less drastic situation. She really wants to confess or even provide student services with another “lost” $20 bill, just like how Raskolnikov almost turned himself in to the police, he was so delirious.
Ok. That was lame how I did the entire thing in 3rd person, but I thought that it would better to capture the idea, especially since I am reading “Crime and Punishment.” I swear that I will never do something so horrid again. I truly felt like a bitch for doing it. But I’m trying to move on. Hopefully posting it on LJ will be some sort of confession and will make me feel better. I know it sounds stupid too, but I’m afraid it’s one of those things where if you do enough bad things, you will become a bad person. I hope that this isn’t the first domino in a trail of bad deeds. God I’m horrible. This is why people need religion - so that they can feel like they are forgiven for doing bad things. Too bad I’m not. I’ll just have to use logic to make myself get over it. I am not prospering from the money, the money would have just sat there, I was helping a friend, not myself, and $20 is not a lot of money. There. I did my best.
I made it to DECA internationals. So I’m going to Orlando for 8 days at the end of April, early May. Also because of golf starting and college visits and all that great stuff, I am literally missing 8 to 9 days of school in April and again in May. This is going to be horrible. I’m a little worried about missing so much school but then again I am 2nd semester senior.
I’m on varsity golf again. Yay! I have to miss 4 tournaments b/c of the days I’m missing, but I can still attend about 11, so that’s cool. I’m guessing I’m captain too because there are only 2 seniors. hell yeah…
I got a 5.5 out of 10 on a euro quiz - the worst grade I have ever gotten. I was so pissed but when I asked him about it, it was b/c I didn’t follow directions. The directions aid that each explanation was supposed to be one sentence, and I wrote 3- 4 sentences. so it was my bad. But still, I was angry. Besides, I can’t stand my euro teacher. He is such an ass and so annoying. And I swear I don’t hate him just because of the grade. I have disliked him since 1st semester was halfway over. He hits on Claire, he always babbles so it’s impossible to decipher what he is really saying without getting lost, and he is just boring, boring, boring. But he cracks the worst jokes thinking that he is funny. I came up with an acronym: POMP - Punch Out Mr. P. yay. Everytime he pisses me off now I’ll just say that. It was either POMP or PISS - *Pritchett (his name) Is Super Stupid. But piss is too hard to say nonchalantly…
Can’t wait for spring break to start. I was going to go to Houston with my family, but instead I am going to this U of M preview thing for 3 days, so the rest of my family is going to Houston. woot. I’m fine with it. In fact, I’m really excited to see how U of M is and if it suits me or not. It will be a very valuable experience. And I’ll have about 5 days to just chillax at home and do art projects, cook, exercise, and watch TV. Also to work on my bio and WH semester projects. So I’m happy about having time to work.
Other than that, there isn’t much going on. I scratched math Olympics and I’m very nervous for science Olympiad b/c I’m hardly prepared for anything, but it should be invigorating (mentally) and fun so I’m excited. Other than that, that’s about it.
CRIME AND PUNISHMENT - EMILY VERSION
Today in Student Union Darin tells a few people that last Wednesday he found a $20 bill by the double doors to the gym and that he turned it into student services. However, he knows that nobody has picked it up in a week and doubts that anybody will and fears that student services will use the money. He asks a Student Union member to go and say that the money is his so that Darin can have it back because he needs money and no longer has a job. Stupid Emily volunteers to do it because she is friends with Darin, but then gets shaky about the idea because it seems wrong. However, she has already agreed to do so, so she goes to the office and asks student services for the money. She tells the office lady where she lost it and receives the question, “When did you lose this money?” She answers, but the office lady says that there is no money and that she needs to ask her coworkers. After leaving the office, the same lady chases Emily and calls her back. Emily is very worries, just as Raskolnikov was when he was first called down to the police station after having committed the murder. Despite how nervous she is, she remains calm and follows the lady. To her surprise, Emily is presented with an envelope with $20. The office lady said that she needed to check the information Emily provided before “returning” the money, which is why she sent her away. As Emily takes the money, the office lady says, “Believe it or not, a student returned this money saying how hard it was to separate with it. We are so glad that it got into the right hands!” Emily is just about dying on the inside, struggling with her morals, just as Raskolnikov did for weeks after the murder. However, she just smiles and nods, thanking the office lady. Upon giving the money to Darin, Emily feels like shit and promises to never do such a dishonest thing again. She worries that the actual owner of the money will need it and will go looking for it. However, logically this would not happen since it is money and people rarely return it. Besides, it has already been a week since the money was returned and it would be Darin’s problem anyway. But Emily is distraught and everytime she hears the announcements or receives a pass, her heart beats a little faster because she feels guilty. It is practically Raskolnikov in a modern, less drastic situation. She really wants to confess or even provide student services with another “lost” $20 bill, just like how Raskolnikov almost turned himself in to the police, he was so delirious.
Ok. That was lame how I did the entire thing in 3rd person, but I thought that it would better to capture the idea, especially since I am reading “Crime and Punishment.” I swear that I will never do something so horrid again. I truly felt like a bitch for doing it. But I’m trying to move on. Hopefully posting it on LJ will be some sort of confession and will make me feel better. I know it sounds stupid too, but I’m afraid it’s one of those things where if you do enough bad things, you will become a bad person. I hope that this isn’t the first domino in a trail of bad deeds. God I’m horrible. This is why people need religion - so that they can feel like they are forgiven for doing bad things. Too bad I’m not. I’ll just have to use logic to make myself get over it. I am not prospering from the money, the money would have just sat there, I was helping a friend, not myself, and $20 is not a lot of money. There. I did my best.
I made it to DECA internationals. So I’m going to Orlando for 8 days at the end of April, early May. Also because of golf starting and college visits and all that great stuff, I am literally missing 8 to 9 days of school in April and again in May. This is going to be horrible. I’m a little worried about missing so much school but then again I am 2nd semester senior.
I’m on varsity golf again. Yay! I have to miss 4 tournaments b/c of the days I’m missing, but I can still attend about 11, so that’s cool. I’m guessing I’m captain too because there are only 2 seniors. hell yeah…
I got a 5.5 out of 10 on a euro quiz - the worst grade I have ever gotten. I was so pissed but when I asked him about it, it was b/c I didn’t follow directions. The directions aid that each explanation was supposed to be one sentence, and I wrote 3- 4 sentences. so it was my bad. But still, I was angry. Besides, I can’t stand my euro teacher. He is such an ass and so annoying. And I swear I don’t hate him just because of the grade. I have disliked him since 1st semester was halfway over. He hits on Claire, he always babbles so it’s impossible to decipher what he is really saying without getting lost, and he is just boring, boring, boring. But he cracks the worst jokes thinking that he is funny. I came up with an acronym: POMP - Punch Out Mr. P. yay. Everytime he pisses me off now I’ll just say that. It was either POMP or PISS - *Pritchett (his name) Is Super Stupid. But piss is too hard to say nonchalantly…
Can’t wait for spring break to start. I was going to go to Houston with my family, but instead I am going to this U of M preview thing for 3 days, so the rest of my family is going to Houston. woot. I’m fine with it. In fact, I’m really excited to see how U of M is and if it suits me or not. It will be a very valuable experience. And I’ll have about 5 days to just chillax at home and do art projects, cook, exercise, and watch TV. Also to work on my bio and WH semester projects. So I’m happy about having time to work.
Other than that, there isn’t much going on. I scratched math Olympics and I’m very nervous for science Olympiad b/c I’m hardly prepared for anything, but it should be invigorating (mentally) and fun so I’m excited. Other than that, that’s about it.