Remember what the Doormouse said...

[trinityvixen]

"Feed your head...feed your head"

How did the creators of Doctor Who come up with the sound of the TARDIS' engines? 'Cause they're drilling and excavating at the proper hospital across the street, and on my way to work, I had to keep from flipping out because it sounded so very similar (point of fact? If no one sees me again for a while after

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[trinityvixen]

Ah, I'd forgotten exactly what she said. "My Doctor" is significant, especially given all the parallelism I was going on about with all that. Because to Blon, the Doctor says, "It's the TARDIS--my TARDIS." And the love is scarcely less than when the TARDIS-Rose God says that line. It makes the whole lack of physicality between them at once forever irrelevant and always heartbreaking. Given the Gallifreyan mode of reproduction (if it's still as you said and I read) and the construction of the TARDIS as vessel not as body, there can be only limited physical intimacy between them. I'm not talking about sex (because even the best sex in the universe is nowhere near to the level of love and intimacy the TARDIS and the Doctor enjoy), just interaction. He makes up for it by touching her, caressing her, taking care of her, and being utterly dependant on her (I realize I seem to have lapsed into a heteronormative assumption, but not really--ships are generally treated as female; I'm making no claims on what gender the TARDIS would be if it had one). Without the TARDIS, he would be the Doctor, but he would not be himself. Without the Doctor, the TARDIS would be a time travel machine, but useless.

So the fact that they can't hug and embrace as the Doctor does with all those he loves really breaks my heart, and what really gets me is when the TARDIS takes over and becomes Rose and is finally able to hug and kiss him for the first time--because it's finally, finally able to give back to him the physicality he enjoys and needs as well as satisfying its own need for the same. And it can't do that without killing him, so it can really only do it the once (and probably one more time--I wouldn't mind a kiss from the TARDIS being the way the Thirteenth Doctor goes out. That would make me CRY UNTIL I DEHYDRATED).