new poem/rant

[trinitysdust]

all my sadness and hurt only turns to anger
i dont know how to handle it any other way
you expect me to stay
when you know youre leaving
setting me up for failure on purpose
i still dont understand why
how am i supposed to sit here, while youre looking for another
you say i make you happy
and yet youre not here
your amusement is me hanging on this string
you think i wont let go
go ahead, tug a little more and see what happens
you take my love for granted
just because i'm in love doesnt mean i have to stand for this
if you care, make a choice
dont just sit there and watch me hurt
give me the grace of explaining all this to me
some sort of insight to whats in your head
thats all i ask...


I don't feel like loving you today,
So don't you even try to change my mind,
The best thing you can do right now,
Is just go away,
Cause I don't feel like loving you today,

I don't wanna talk about last night,
I'm angry and I haven't had much sleep,
And I'm so tired and bloodshot,
There's no tellin' what I'd say,
I don't feel like loving you today,

But you know I will anyway,
Even though we make it hard sometimes,
I'll wind up forgiving and probably loving you,
For the rest of my life,
But I don't feel like loving you today,
And I've got 16 hours left to go,
I might tell you that I'm leaving,
Even though you know I'll stay,
Cause I don't feel like loving you today,

But you know I will anyway,
Even though we make it hard sometimes,
I'll wind up forgiving and probably loving you,
For the rest of my life,
But I don't feel like loving you today,

I just don't feel like loving you today