I've gotta try and find a friend, I gotta try and find a good place again...
Do you know the kind of emotional exhaustion where, when you hear the perfect song, you just want to close your eyes, rest for a moment, and let the tears well up? Even if you're driving or trying to do something productive? The kind of exhaustion where you want to just sit in your car while it rains, and soak up the sound, but due to social commitments, you can't? The kind of exhaustion where the only real peace you get is lying in bed at night, holding back tears?
Because I think I've hit that point again. I've been on the verge for the past few days, and I think I saw this coming, but not quite at this level.
I think I need to secede from the majority of my social activities for a while. I'm not looking to cut any ties, nor am I implying that I need the bulk of people I associate with out of my life. I just need to get away from everything people are doing and saying around and to me because rather than enjoying most peoples' company, I'm getting annoyed by their presence and attitudes, biting my tongue, and wanting to leave.
I guess in the past few weeks and months, I've been experiencing the true nature of many people; lack of respect for others is my biggest pet peeve, yet it seems respect is the hardest thing for people to show others, which has been upsetting and frustrating to say the least. Why people can't even attempt to be decent human beings, I don't know. Why people have to get their laughs and other types of enjoyment at the expense of others, I'll never understand.
What I do know is that the attitudes and opinions of many people I consider my "friends" have been antagonistic, rude, self-centered, and overall contradictory to my own, as of late.
If you truly want to spend time with me, chances are I still enjoy your company but I can't bring myself to call. If you call wanting to hang out, depending on my mood, I may or may not want to. Please try to understand and don't take it personally if I choose to stay holed up in my room over jumping at the opportunity to be around you in a social setting.
I'm stressed, I'm tired, and I need to get away from the people that have been pushing me in the wrong directions.
If you've noticed me being or becoming a recluse recently, this is why. There are a number of factors, but this is how it all boils down. I'm sorry for any misunderstanding, but please, please try not to take it personally.
Because I think I've hit that point again. I've been on the verge for the past few days, and I think I saw this coming, but not quite at this level.
I think I need to secede from the majority of my social activities for a while. I'm not looking to cut any ties, nor am I implying that I need the bulk of people I associate with out of my life. I just need to get away from everything people are doing and saying around and to me because rather than enjoying most peoples' company, I'm getting annoyed by their presence and attitudes, biting my tongue, and wanting to leave.
I guess in the past few weeks and months, I've been experiencing the true nature of many people; lack of respect for others is my biggest pet peeve, yet it seems respect is the hardest thing for people to show others, which has been upsetting and frustrating to say the least. Why people can't even attempt to be decent human beings, I don't know. Why people have to get their laughs and other types of enjoyment at the expense of others, I'll never understand.
What I do know is that the attitudes and opinions of many people I consider my "friends" have been antagonistic, rude, self-centered, and overall contradictory to my own, as of late.
If you truly want to spend time with me, chances are I still enjoy your company but I can't bring myself to call. If you call wanting to hang out, depending on my mood, I may or may not want to. Please try to understand and don't take it personally if I choose to stay holed up in my room over jumping at the opportunity to be around you in a social setting.
I'm stressed, I'm tired, and I need to get away from the people that have been pushing me in the wrong directions.
If you've noticed me being or becoming a recluse recently, this is why. There are a number of factors, but this is how it all boils down. I'm sorry for any misunderstanding, but please, please try not to take it personally.