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i feel like journaling tonight a little before bed. training tonight was interesting but since i have been up for almost 24 hrs nothing could keep me fully awake. for about 20 mins i couldnt help but be fully alert though. we listened to the 911 call from Karen not too long ago. you hear a young women call in and tell dispatch someone is in her home, her baby is in the other room, she doesnt know what to do. dispatch tells her lock the door and get under the bed, she does. her breathing gets heavy, her voice shaky. then you hear the man breaking down the bedroom door and dispatch yelling tell "TELL HIM YOUR ON THE PHONE WITH THE POLICE!" And you hear Karen screaming voice cracking "I'M ON THE PHONE WITH THE POLICE! DONT KILL ME! I'M ON THE PHONE WITH THE POLICE"......silence from dispatch as the woman begins screaming for the next 5 mins as she is being raped and beaten. you feel as if something is reaching inside of you and your left hollow, no real thought or emotion only an unreal sense of being.
so training is going well. class 9-5 tomorrow and 8-12 sunday then next week and so on. my partner from last week had to drop out-she is not emotionally ready yet. am i? well, God willing He will use me and i'll get through it.