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...does constanly putting yourself, your good name and credit, your time, your money and love into people reap any benefit? Maybe...the answers are still inconclusive but pointing to a strong negative....do I learn anything? Maybe...certainly not about the strong bonds of love and how their power will overcome any obstacle, certainly not about loyalty nor consideration...thoughts of me are lost in the airwaves in the same layer of the atmosphere as LAs and Mexicos pollution...BUT I do learn to devalue...not just somethings...why no all of it loses its value...a heart of black marble or stone but rather than stripping away the unecessary layers to reveal beauty underneath...an accomplished sense of self...no I lose myself and what I hold onto or care for takes it from me...take it all...the sooner I can care less the sooner I'll finally be ready for this world and all its joys....