"Sometimes the unknown can disappoint you"

[trinitydawning]

Who wants to move to L.A. with me? Why does the real world have to be as bad as everyone says it is? Well, not bad...just hard. What do you do when you realize everything you want is so far out of reach and you can't seem to build the bridge to cross the ocean? What happens when all the work it's going to take doesn't seem worth it? I mean, not all the work, some of the work I am more then willing to do, but there's the part before that, the constant struggle just to make enough money to support basic need, the part that looks like it's going to take so much time and energy, the part I just don't think I can do. Maybe I'm lazy, maybe it's a character flaw, or maybe I'm spoiled, but it's going to be hard enough work without all that extra, it just feels like a waste of precious time. I wish I could find something I wanted to do that I could go to four year of a nice friendly college for and then head out into the working world an do...but that's not going to happen...
Tommorow is my favority holiday and I have nothing to do. Sometimes the patheticness of my social life astounds me.