Been a long time gone....
Hello hello hello ... it has been a long time since i actually wrote and entry more than just a few words... to day has just been BLAH i just now got out of bed for real and have done nothing but watch TV all day .. josh went to his moms and had a huge fight and missed the time for him to put in job apps... and hes not in a good mood.. like normal.. hes always stressed out and in a bad mood.. i think its his job but i danno .. we never spend real time together.. i dont call eatN dinner in front of a tv not conversing back and forth not really even lookn at each other much then going to bed right after really spendN time together.. i dont have to spend money to have time together.. and thats what he thinks but he never wants to go do anything productive... like run.. or even walk... maybe work out.. now thats far from what i like but hey if we do it together it wouldnt be so bad...get a bike and go bikeN or rollerbladeN.. maybe hike or play pool or go look at houses or a movie and dinner at least he has to talk to me through dinner ... he just is always tired or pissed off.. i wish things were better for him and if its me then he needs to let me know something .. but i dont think it is us.. i think its just him ... and him not being happy in his job.. but who knows.... other news.. IM GETTN TITTIES finally.. hahaha no no not the ones that will be w/ u forever.. i am ganna buy prosthetics.. i found a comp. that makes them online and for 520$ i can have real lookN boobs..great for pageants and things.... im not ganna do EOY this year .. i wanna try another system before i go back.. i think im ganna do USA this year .. seems like fun and i have no expectations for this system and me..lots of things going on but i dont know what really to talk about... hmm well i guess ill go out to the jazz tonight ... maybe ill see some of yaw there .. laters