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why is it that i cannot be everything to everybody? a quest i have spent most of my life on...
only to find that it killed me. i suppose i thought that once i went through all of my pain whether self inflicted or not, i would come out with some new revelation. i guess that is what we all seek or at least hope for. this evening as i sit here...i am reminded once more of the lessons learned over the past 25 years of life. oh my god, all i rely on is your grace. you are all i want and all i need. if you do not go with me, i dont want to go. but if have gone ahead of this, i will walk it out by faith. i will seek you first in it so that i may be the woman you intend. i will pursue you so that i will remain self less. oh my god...spare me the hell on earth if your hand is not on this. as a child looks to her father pleading for protection...i look to you now...in this very moment. i want your blessing and your peace. all i can be is what you desire at this moment. i have been humbled and i thank you for it. my heart is yours lord.
only to find that it killed me. i suppose i thought that once i went through all of my pain whether self inflicted or not, i would come out with some new revelation. i guess that is what we all seek or at least hope for. this evening as i sit here...i am reminded once more of the lessons learned over the past 25 years of life. oh my god, all i rely on is your grace. you are all i want and all i need. if you do not go with me, i dont want to go. but if have gone ahead of this, i will walk it out by faith. i will seek you first in it so that i may be the woman you intend. i will pursue you so that i will remain self less. oh my god...spare me the hell on earth if your hand is not on this. as a child looks to her father pleading for protection...i look to you now...in this very moment. i want your blessing and your peace. all i can be is what you desire at this moment. i have been humbled and i thank you for it. my heart is yours lord.