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i really dont know what i want to write...i was suppose to work this morning and get overtime pay but they canceled me due to enough nurses being at work-FINALLY enough nurses!
my sleep is all screwed up so i sleep when the world is awake and im awake when the world is asleep.
i guess when im able to just sit in this present moment, while the world around me is still and quiet i am reminded of what life really is...an adventure, a journey, a process.
my heart has once again been awakened in its deepest part by my true LOVE...Jesus Christ. last night the lord made me aware of HImself...he let my eyes see once again the grace that has been lavished upon me, the unimaginable love that he has for me and the hope that his son has in me for life abundant..once again i say ABUNDANT.
no it is not i who in any shape or form deserve any of this but HE pushes me through to this place with him. He has let this captive free, the chains have indeed been broken-jesus has said no more living as a slave to anyone but himself and being a slave to jesus is like being a royal queen for sure!
i only write these words for anyone who may read this...no sin, death, situation, circumstance, or anything could ever keep us from his love.
i have walked through self righteousness, i have experienced religion, i have experienced a love affair that was based on self, i have searched out love on my own and found the LIE, i have walked through hell, i have experienced the presence of the almighty, i have been in sickness, i have been in health, i have been rejected, i have been disciplined, i have been "let go" by those who claimed they loved me, i have cheated and been cheated, i have known sorrow to my hearts limit, i have caused pain for those who love me, i have cried so hard my lungs hurt for 2 days, i have known darkness, i have known light, ive been questioned, i have questioned those around me, i have walked alone, i have made new friends in christ, i have settled before, i have been in many places over the past year of my life-
and all God says is..."i have covered it all in my sons blood, HIS blood has washed it ALL away, you are free indeed, now go and live and let your story touch the world".
what amazing love, the tears well up within me even now...what amazing grace he has poured out on me-i am free, you are free if you know him, his love has capture me, he has rescued this woman, he has written me a song of love and in him i have found truth.
much forgiveness has been given-much forgiveness will be shown to the world, i am excited to be alive again.
my sleep is all screwed up so i sleep when the world is awake and im awake when the world is asleep.
i guess when im able to just sit in this present moment, while the world around me is still and quiet i am reminded of what life really is...an adventure, a journey, a process.
my heart has once again been awakened in its deepest part by my true LOVE...Jesus Christ. last night the lord made me aware of HImself...he let my eyes see once again the grace that has been lavished upon me, the unimaginable love that he has for me and the hope that his son has in me for life abundant..once again i say ABUNDANT.
no it is not i who in any shape or form deserve any of this but HE pushes me through to this place with him. He has let this captive free, the chains have indeed been broken-jesus has said no more living as a slave to anyone but himself and being a slave to jesus is like being a royal queen for sure!
i only write these words for anyone who may read this...no sin, death, situation, circumstance, or anything could ever keep us from his love.
i have walked through self righteousness, i have experienced religion, i have experienced a love affair that was based on self, i have searched out love on my own and found the LIE, i have walked through hell, i have experienced the presence of the almighty, i have been in sickness, i have been in health, i have been rejected, i have been disciplined, i have been "let go" by those who claimed they loved me, i have cheated and been cheated, i have known sorrow to my hearts limit, i have caused pain for those who love me, i have cried so hard my lungs hurt for 2 days, i have known darkness, i have known light, ive been questioned, i have questioned those around me, i have walked alone, i have made new friends in christ, i have settled before, i have been in many places over the past year of my life-
and all God says is..."i have covered it all in my sons blood, HIS blood has washed it ALL away, you are free indeed, now go and live and let your story touch the world".
what amazing love, the tears well up within me even now...what amazing grace he has poured out on me-i am free, you are free if you know him, his love has capture me, he has rescued this woman, he has written me a song of love and in him i have found truth.
much forgiveness has been given-much forgiveness will be shown to the world, i am excited to be alive again.