humph!
well fri nite was not quite what i expected. although i did get plastered which i havent done in a long time, but i feel like rat shit now cauz i had to go to an early chiro appt this morning. all the friends i love and care about were there, thanx guys :) and so was my partner, matty.
we were ok at first but add alcohol and the loss of inhabitions and we had a recipe for disaster. we niggled at eachother all nite which turned into a fight when people had left which kinda got resolved as best we could before going to sleep. i pushed him and i should know better. but u know us women, if we are hurting we want everyone else to know what it feels like too.
so i had my consult with gloria this morning and i have alot of work to do as does matty before we can get our relationship back on track, but the point is we want it to work so we are going to work damn hard to do it. i just have to focus on changing my behaviour and thought patterns so they are less destructive and i mite for the first time in my life be, oh my god, truely be happy! just have to keep telling my sub-conscious that things are going to change and that it will do as its told.
i just have to work out if i can be bothered having australia day at ours as we live on the foreshore but im not sure i actually have the emotionally energy atm to deal with all those people at one time. time will tell i guess. sorry for the boring woeful crap in this entry of which most of u probably wont understand anyway, but i had to get it off my chest, which has now shrunk to a b cup, but thats the price of losing weight :)
TTFN
we were ok at first but add alcohol and the loss of inhabitions and we had a recipe for disaster. we niggled at eachother all nite which turned into a fight when people had left which kinda got resolved as best we could before going to sleep. i pushed him and i should know better. but u know us women, if we are hurting we want everyone else to know what it feels like too.
so i had my consult with gloria this morning and i have alot of work to do as does matty before we can get our relationship back on track, but the point is we want it to work so we are going to work damn hard to do it. i just have to focus on changing my behaviour and thought patterns so they are less destructive and i mite for the first time in my life be, oh my god, truely be happy! just have to keep telling my sub-conscious that things are going to change and that it will do as its told.
i just have to work out if i can be bothered having australia day at ours as we live on the foreshore but im not sure i actually have the emotionally energy atm to deal with all those people at one time. time will tell i guess. sorry for the boring woeful crap in this entry of which most of u probably wont understand anyway, but i had to get it off my chest, which has now shrunk to a b cup, but thats the price of losing weight :)
TTFN