May 10, 2005 22:30
Ok today has been an emotional rollercoaster..
I realized today that through something bad there will always come something good. I could never not even to this day say I dont miss what I had.. my friendship with Krista was special to me whether it was to her or not. She shaped me into who I am today. She also through our "struggle" led me to find 2 wonderful special girls who I could come to and they know they could come to me about anything.
Kelsey I want you to know first of all I appreicate everything.. my ride to school, my job, my laughs, my(your) clothes.. but mainly your understanding friendship. You have a big heart You care about people.. but not enough to change who you are. You know how to let loose but you know how keep in when nessessary. Yu have the best laugh and the best cry.. you make me know everything is goiong to be Ok. Your comfortable about who you are and you teach me not to care about what people say.. You have a gift Your a special person who I feel is always going to be there.. I cant thank you enough for tonight..lol not in a gross way.. lol .. It helped me so much to have someone to come pick me up and cry with.. You truly undrestand me and I feel like you come to me with problems as well. You know how I feel about Matt.. and I agree about the whole how can people not need someone or want someone just because its good at the moment.. But people do things and not everyone feels the same way. So we have to move on and grow.. not be grown. Our lives are about growing.. not all of the sudden growing up and changing who we are for anyone.
Kylie... what can I say.. first of all I like to say i have tried calling you back and your line is busy every time.. so blah to you. ANyways. Just as kelz is your special to me as well..Your always cracking me up and I love talking to you, your such a fun caring aweseom beautiful person .. and You could light up anyone day your smile and funny faces make my bad days seem a little better... Even though I pick on ya about being a 5 year old bitch.. I hope you knwo just how truly pretty you really are Your one of the few girls that are "nautural" lol and it definatly works for you! You are yourself around everyone and I dont knwo anyone who doesnt like you.. I hope you knwo as well that I am here for you and I know you are there for me. I love ya!
Yall are my girls and tongiht has been great I cant wait untill our beach trip and summer and my bday trip and swimming and shopping and partying.. lol I have SOOo much fun with yall and then there are the serious times like tonight that I knwo yall are there as well.
I cant thank you two enough.. I am so blessed... with many people. Vinny, lindz huber, paul, brantly, birda, scott, xtina. ...
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