Tonight, Tonight
It's different than I thought it would be. Thought the change would be simple, but its proving to be more difficult than I want to believe. This, along with other inner conflicts has left me restless. I can keep telling myself I'm ok but then I hurt again. Looking in the mirror gets worse each time, wanting to pick up old habits, barely pulling through to play it strong, wanting nothing more than to be great again.
Odd thing is, externally things couldn't be better, but I can't see passed me right now. Forgive my selfishness.
I feel as though I've failed at the various roles I have the many relationships I'm apart of right now.
I'll get through it. I just need your patience.
I just saw a picture of how you used to have it and I know its nothin of what you want but its hard seeing that right now. I know you're there, just know I need to go through this, with you, all the way. You're amazing, each day, I know I don't deserve it. But there you are again.
I love you.
Odd thing is, externally things couldn't be better, but I can't see passed me right now. Forgive my selfishness.
I feel as though I've failed at the various roles I have the many relationships I'm apart of right now.
I'll get through it. I just need your patience.
I just saw a picture of how you used to have it and I know its nothin of what you want but its hard seeing that right now. I know you're there, just know I need to go through this, with you, all the way. You're amazing, each day, I know I don't deserve it. But there you are again.
I love you.