Jul 04, 2004 20:03
I'm here to be real.
I've learned so much lately, its unreal. The things I've been able to discover about myself and life are refreshing.
It's ridiculous to have reasons. Reasons to smile, to be happy, to be inspired, to live. About a month ago, when he slipped away, thats all I wanted. I wanted an explanation for my pain and lost love. My flaws became overwhelming and now its time to celebrate.
Tears have become more than a release, they're a comfort. Last Sunday night, for the first time in years, I didn't attend the fireworks. I instead reflected on the beauty of it all. Just me and my tears.
Vindicated. Much more than a song. Its the theme of my life right now.
Movies and music have been my source of power.
My biggest asset is my tragic flaw, but I'll NEVER stop loving, with highest hopes.
I've realized what it feels like to live again. To sing so loud and so bad, you can't help but laugh. To dance in the streets to the sounds of silence.
I've survived. A crisis of faith. And oh, what a feeling.