Hi.
Wowww, it's been forever. I think over a year. Hi.
This year has been really... different. I'm single, of course. Probably not mentioned in here previously, but yep. Not even gonna go into how hard that was to get over, but I'm finally getting there.
Mostly it's been fun going out and being single but I'm not going to sit here and pretend I don't miss EVERY day having someone to confide in and trust and cuddle and just be there for you. My friends aren't the same in that respect. At all.
And I haven't like met any guys at all yet. Haven't made any new guy friends or anything. So I'm not even close to having that type of relationship with someone again, it's really sad.
The breakup taught me how to behave in a relationship though. I realized SO many of the things I was doing wrong, or whatever. I doubt I will ever make those mistakes again, so there's something good.
And Cheryl had a date last night which was depressing to me because like...she just met this guy at the breezeway, they exchanged numbers and he actually called! What the hell. I'm happy for her obvivously but why can't that ever happen to me? Even if it did I'd be so damn awkward on that date that it probably wouldn't go anywhere, I'm literally SO awkward around people I don't know well. It's terrible. Maybe I'm being too hard on myself but I really really wish I was different in that respect.
Anyway I have been studying really hard this semester but my marks are still only mediocre and I'm currently failing physics. So... yay me. Yay for being dumb, I guess? I have a Chemistry test on Tuesday that I've been stuyding for for the past week, except it was half assed studying where I'd take HUGE unneccessary breaks so it slowed me down sooo much. I spent a week studying and it was only like probably 4 or 5 hours of actual studying. Sad stuff. Next week I have Biochem (thursday) and Psych (friday). And then the week after that, I think? I have physics. And the week after that, I think, I have chemistry again. And then I'm done until finals.
And then...
I get to go home for Christmas! I haven't been home at all this semester :( I wish I went home for midterm break now because I really am getting homesick haha. I think my mom is coming in one weekend before I go home for Christmas though so that's good. I definitely like this semester better than last year though, well at least living situation wise. Now that I'm out of res I can appreciate how much I hated it. I went to dining hall the other day with Danielle and it was like... god, I would hate to have to eat like this every day, and then.. oh wait, I did. So annoying, I love eating in front of the tv on the couch, BY MYSELF. Haha.
Anyway I'm going to go study chemistry again...gah..
leah xo.
This year has been really... different. I'm single, of course. Probably not mentioned in here previously, but yep. Not even gonna go into how hard that was to get over, but I'm finally getting there.
Mostly it's been fun going out and being single but I'm not going to sit here and pretend I don't miss EVERY day having someone to confide in and trust and cuddle and just be there for you. My friends aren't the same in that respect. At all.
And I haven't like met any guys at all yet. Haven't made any new guy friends or anything. So I'm not even close to having that type of relationship with someone again, it's really sad.
The breakup taught me how to behave in a relationship though. I realized SO many of the things I was doing wrong, or whatever. I doubt I will ever make those mistakes again, so there's something good.
And Cheryl had a date last night which was depressing to me because like...she just met this guy at the breezeway, they exchanged numbers and he actually called! What the hell. I'm happy for her obvivously but why can't that ever happen to me? Even if it did I'd be so damn awkward on that date that it probably wouldn't go anywhere, I'm literally SO awkward around people I don't know well. It's terrible. Maybe I'm being too hard on myself but I really really wish I was different in that respect.
Anyway I have been studying really hard this semester but my marks are still only mediocre and I'm currently failing physics. So... yay me. Yay for being dumb, I guess? I have a Chemistry test on Tuesday that I've been stuyding for for the past week, except it was half assed studying where I'd take HUGE unneccessary breaks so it slowed me down sooo much. I spent a week studying and it was only like probably 4 or 5 hours of actual studying. Sad stuff. Next week I have Biochem (thursday) and Psych (friday). And then the week after that, I think? I have physics. And the week after that, I think, I have chemistry again. And then I'm done until finals.
And then...
I get to go home for Christmas! I haven't been home at all this semester :( I wish I went home for midterm break now because I really am getting homesick haha. I think my mom is coming in one weekend before I go home for Christmas though so that's good. I definitely like this semester better than last year though, well at least living situation wise. Now that I'm out of res I can appreciate how much I hated it. I went to dining hall the other day with Danielle and it was like... god, I would hate to have to eat like this every day, and then.. oh wait, I did. So annoying, I love eating in front of the tv on the couch, BY MYSELF. Haha.
Anyway I'm going to go study chemistry again...gah..
leah xo.