mad mad mad

[trillasfxck]

fuck some not being able to drive

fuck some parents not giving a shit about anything but themselves

my mom left me here at the house while i was in the shower; after she already told me that she would take me to the gym while she went to my grandmother's house.. i get out of the shower to find that she's not here anymore. i called her and she said that she was getting her flat tire fixed.. and then going to feed my grandmother and then going to eat somewhere..

what the fuck

im fucking paying my membership to the gym and i cant even go when i need to go..

i planned on starting a "bulking up" work-out today to build muscle so that when spring approaches and i start my "cutting phase" i will have some nice sized muscles to chisel.. i dont see that happening now.. and now i will probably have to wait until fucking monday to start.

what the fuck

i started taking creatine and whey protein yesterday. i have to load the creatine for five days, which means taking five grams every four hours. after the loading phase is done i'll take five grams a day, after my workout i believe, for 2 months. after that i will stay off of it for a month due to my body building up an immunity to it. after that month i will load again, etc.

how the hell is this supposed to help me if i can't fucking work out when i need to

damn

what

the

FUCK

i havent seen any of my friends in forever...
and now i cant even do the one thing that keeps me occupied..

shit

i think im going to start a new livejournal for working out. to keep a log or whatever.. i think ill do that now.

deuces