welly welly well then
Me and the stallion didn't work out so well, he disappeared for about a month, and didn't return calls, texts, IM's, nothing, so, I took it as he dumped me, or, possibly he'd died and no one was aware of my existance, as is, so often the case -_- Who'd admit to dating me?
Anyway, he is fine, just too busy to talk to me, at all, or anything of the sort, was in the hospital for a bit, which I understand, but,I'd moved on, I waited 2 years and a few months, for someone who never came to me, I'm not sitting around and waiting anymore. No point it waiting and waiting and waiting for something that might not happen, when you got something, right now, that is working :) So, I've got myself a panda bear and I'm happy, he makes me warm and fuzzy and I heartbubble and blush and it's just, so nice to be with someone I don't have to question their loyalty, or being faithful to me.
I mean, taking into account everything, I loved my stallion, but...he just kept so many little things from me and wasn't there, so, I worried myself to death. Who works 12 hours a day, 6 days a week, that's at least, 72 hours, and ON top of that, he'd be up early(he went to work at 3 pm, got home, 3 am) but, he'd be awake at 8 am his time, and at 9 am, he was called into work, -every other day- I mean...c'mon, I'm not stupid, I dated Jayce and he had all kinds of stories.
My panda was there for Xmas, for new years(and I appreciate that, it's just another day, but still, it has significance to me) and so I sent'm a little belated Xmas present, a big ol panda plushie, I mean, the guy's known me since Sept, and he trusted me with his mailing address, while my stallion, refused downright, to share it, so I could send him something for Xmas, so, I got a horse plush in my room, probably gonna be tossed in the trash or something, maybe the fire, I dunno. But the point is, my panda trusted me, and his working hours are realistic, 40 or so hours a week, ya know, normal job, I know when he'll be home, and what he's doing and everything(hey, I'm paranoid, I gotta know what my SO's doing, even if I trust'm, I like to know) instead of like 80 hours a week >.> I just, I can't buy that. He was in the hospital, I can believe, him being worked that hard, no, it's not likely, not impossible, but,not likely.
Anyway, I'm with my bear, and he's like, the most awesome guy ever, he's all like, sexy, and fuzzy and got red hair <3 and I wanna just nuzzle into his chest fur and curl up in bed with'm, heh. Funny thing about my panda, is, we've been friends since Sept, and only started talking about other stuff, middle of Jan, the day after he asked me to be his mate, my stallion comes back. But anyway, since Sept, that's like, 4 months give or take, and, we've not yiffed, not webcammed(well, we have, but, nothing below the belt, just face and chest and stuff ^_^) Hehe, he even sent me a Vid of himself, flexing his arms and chest <3 it was so sweet ^_^
Wow, I have alot more to update then I thought, hmm, been bottling it up too much lately, I suppose.
Oh well, lastly, I'm thinking of writing another story, Elin's, to be precise, I dunno, I just have this weird feeling inside, like, he's close by, almost within reach and he's just waiting for me to grab ahold of him and hold on....
LOL, and the song playing is my ex, Jayce's, that he composed for me ^_^ such irony.
Anyway, he is fine, just too busy to talk to me, at all, or anything of the sort, was in the hospital for a bit, which I understand, but,I'd moved on, I waited 2 years and a few months, for someone who never came to me, I'm not sitting around and waiting anymore. No point it waiting and waiting and waiting for something that might not happen, when you got something, right now, that is working :) So, I've got myself a panda bear and I'm happy, he makes me warm and fuzzy and I heartbubble and blush and it's just, so nice to be with someone I don't have to question their loyalty, or being faithful to me.
I mean, taking into account everything, I loved my stallion, but...he just kept so many little things from me and wasn't there, so, I worried myself to death. Who works 12 hours a day, 6 days a week, that's at least, 72 hours, and ON top of that, he'd be up early(he went to work at 3 pm, got home, 3 am) but, he'd be awake at 8 am his time, and at 9 am, he was called into work, -every other day- I mean...c'mon, I'm not stupid, I dated Jayce and he had all kinds of stories.
My panda was there for Xmas, for new years(and I appreciate that, it's just another day, but still, it has significance to me) and so I sent'm a little belated Xmas present, a big ol panda plushie, I mean, the guy's known me since Sept, and he trusted me with his mailing address, while my stallion, refused downright, to share it, so I could send him something for Xmas, so, I got a horse plush in my room, probably gonna be tossed in the trash or something, maybe the fire, I dunno. But the point is, my panda trusted me, and his working hours are realistic, 40 or so hours a week, ya know, normal job, I know when he'll be home, and what he's doing and everything(hey, I'm paranoid, I gotta know what my SO's doing, even if I trust'm, I like to know) instead of like 80 hours a week >.> I just, I can't buy that. He was in the hospital, I can believe, him being worked that hard, no, it's not likely, not impossible, but,not likely.
Anyway, I'm with my bear, and he's like, the most awesome guy ever, he's all like, sexy, and fuzzy and got red hair <3 and I wanna just nuzzle into his chest fur and curl up in bed with'm, heh. Funny thing about my panda, is, we've been friends since Sept, and only started talking about other stuff, middle of Jan, the day after he asked me to be his mate, my stallion comes back. But anyway, since Sept, that's like, 4 months give or take, and, we've not yiffed, not webcammed(well, we have, but, nothing below the belt, just face and chest and stuff ^_^) Hehe, he even sent me a Vid of himself, flexing his arms and chest <3 it was so sweet ^_^
Wow, I have alot more to update then I thought, hmm, been bottling it up too much lately, I suppose.
Oh well, lastly, I'm thinking of writing another story, Elin's, to be precise, I dunno, I just have this weird feeling inside, like, he's close by, almost within reach and he's just waiting for me to grab ahold of him and hold on....
LOL, and the song playing is my ex, Jayce's, that he composed for me ^_^ such irony.