Everything that has a beginning has an end....
This is the last entry on LiveJournal that you will see from me in a long time, if ever.
It's not worth it anymore. I have had more drama and shit happen because of this online blogging site than worth it. The bad outweighs the good. I'm sick of it.
Once again, shit has blown up in my face. And once again, I'm caught in the middle of it, unsure why. Apparently I am at fault for something I dont know, and no one will tell me. But I'm at fault.
It's hard to say what I'm feeling right now. Probably it would best be described as a combonation of infuriation and saddness. This is one of those situations where it doesn't turn out good for anyone.
I'm angry because I don't know what I'm being held accountable for. I'm angry becaues while "everyone" was talking last night, myself and Dustin had no way to defend ourselves about what was being said about us, making it easy for others to gang up on us and make us look like the badguys. I'm angry because once again, shit is blowing up in my face and I have no way of controlling it. I don't know what's going to be done about Ben's graduation. I still want to go, but I don't know if I'm welcome....
Am I so wrong in wanting someone who, while claiming that I am their best friend continually lie to my face, out of my apartment? Where is the friendship in that? Do you think I am that stupid? This has happened over and over. Each time you say you are "sorry, and I promise I won't do it again." Kinda looses meaning after the first time. Lie to me, and I will find it very hard to trust you again. Continue lieing to me....I think you can figure out the answer youself. Dustin and I were gracious enough to invite you into our home while you "searched" for another apartment to live in. Instead, you set up camp, decided you were going to stay here past Christmas, and blow all the money that you earned, saving a mere $200, thinking that would get you "out and on your own." News flash: it's not.
So here we are. 3 years later, and wrapping this up. I really don't know if I'm ever going to use LiveJournal again. It's caused too much heartache, grief, and pain. I'm only human. I can only stand to be hurt so many times. I try so hard to be a good person. To be nice to everyone. To take shit from people, hoping somehow that they will see the error in their ways and change. Apparently that's too much to hope for...
If you want to get ahold of me, you know my cell number. If it takes too much effort to contact me via phone rather than LiveJournal, well, that goes to show you how much of a friend you are. This is what it has come down to. I hope you're happy.
It's not worth it anymore. I have had more drama and shit happen because of this online blogging site than worth it. The bad outweighs the good. I'm sick of it.
Once again, shit has blown up in my face. And once again, I'm caught in the middle of it, unsure why. Apparently I am at fault for something I dont know, and no one will tell me. But I'm at fault.
It's hard to say what I'm feeling right now. Probably it would best be described as a combonation of infuriation and saddness. This is one of those situations where it doesn't turn out good for anyone.
I'm angry because I don't know what I'm being held accountable for. I'm angry becaues while "everyone" was talking last night, myself and Dustin had no way to defend ourselves about what was being said about us, making it easy for others to gang up on us and make us look like the badguys. I'm angry because once again, shit is blowing up in my face and I have no way of controlling it. I don't know what's going to be done about Ben's graduation. I still want to go, but I don't know if I'm welcome....
Am I so wrong in wanting someone who, while claiming that I am their best friend continually lie to my face, out of my apartment? Where is the friendship in that? Do you think I am that stupid? This has happened over and over. Each time you say you are "sorry, and I promise I won't do it again." Kinda looses meaning after the first time. Lie to me, and I will find it very hard to trust you again. Continue lieing to me....I think you can figure out the answer youself. Dustin and I were gracious enough to invite you into our home while you "searched" for another apartment to live in. Instead, you set up camp, decided you were going to stay here past Christmas, and blow all the money that you earned, saving a mere $200, thinking that would get you "out and on your own." News flash: it's not.
So here we are. 3 years later, and wrapping this up. I really don't know if I'm ever going to use LiveJournal again. It's caused too much heartache, grief, and pain. I'm only human. I can only stand to be hurt so many times. I try so hard to be a good person. To be nice to everyone. To take shit from people, hoping somehow that they will see the error in their ways and change. Apparently that's too much to hope for...
If you want to get ahold of me, you know my cell number. If it takes too much effort to contact me via phone rather than LiveJournal, well, that goes to show you how much of a friend you are. This is what it has come down to. I hope you're happy.