Medication sucks.
Why are we bitches to those we love the most? Why do we hurt those we love the most and couldn't live without? WHY OH WHY can I not get my moods under control. I'm about to give up on medication. I tried another new medication the other day and I had to have someone come get me from WORK. How embarassing. This medication had me slur when I spoke like I was drunk. I also couldn't focus my eyes on ANYthing and could BARELY keep them open. You know how you feel when you canNOT keep your eyes open and they start crossing when you are trying so HARD to stay awake? It was like that. I called the dr and can you believe he said "well that is how the medication does for the first little bit, keep taking it". HELL NO. And please mr dr. define "first little bit". I stopped taking it after one day. If I cannot even do my job then I dont want that medication. Also apparently my body is saying NO STOP TAKING THAT CRAP!
I'm thinking as of yesterday that I should just stop taking the medication. Then i had a moment with my boyfriend that i truly regret. A fit I did pitch. A big one and i'm embarassed I did that. So that brings me back to my point of why do we hurt those we love the most. Silly. Silly some people like me can't grasp and pull my shit together. So many other people in this world with MUCH bigger problems than me and here I am having depression and mood swings like you wouldn't believe. Sad. So I took another pill this morning from the kind I had been taking for months and threw the evil medication away. Atleast this kind helps me 25%.
I'm thinking as of yesterday that I should just stop taking the medication. Then i had a moment with my boyfriend that i truly regret. A fit I did pitch. A big one and i'm embarassed I did that. So that brings me back to my point of why do we hurt those we love the most. Silly. Silly some people like me can't grasp and pull my shit together. So many other people in this world with MUCH bigger problems than me and here I am having depression and mood swings like you wouldn't believe. Sad. So I took another pill this morning from the kind I had been taking for months and threw the evil medication away. Atleast this kind helps me 25%.