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I've decided that im going to make some changes in my life. It seems like i just keep making these horrible mistakes and doing things wrong and im so sick of it. I'm going to start listening to myself and start doing what i think is right even if it does make me look like a "loser". I dont want to hurt the person i care more about than anything anymore. I'm not going to try this time.. im just going to do it. He means more to me than anything in this lifetime and im going to finally prove that to him. Even if things dont end up the way i hope they will.. it doesn't matter because i wont be looking back and wondering if i did something different then things would be good. I'll know that its just because it wasn't meant to be. And if that's the case then i think i can deal with it rather than knowing it was all my fault.. like it seems to be lately. I just want things to be back the way they were..
ps- thanks for talking to me jen.. <3 you!
ps- thanks for talking to me jen.. <3 you!