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ok i know i never update this thing, but its not for yall its for me. and right now ive got a lot of things on my mind that i feel would be nice to "write" down.
1. i was planning on going to destin this whole week from monday to saturday with tadd so i could see jessica and amy who are already down there. I could not do that however, because tadd backed out at the last minute with the excuse that his mother wouldnt let him because if he left she would have to hire a babysitter for the entire week. whether that story is true or not, im not sure. but it really sucks because tadd had been talking about going and seemed more excited than i was, and i worked really hard to clear my work schedule for a week so we could go. anyway, the whole thing is a big mess because i think jessica was supposed to come home with me on saturday because amy is staying longer than jessica wants to put up with her. which brings me to point #2, and for that, i obviously need another line and the number two with a dot after it.
2.ok, now that we've got that out of the way, its time to get back to what i was talking about. since jessica left, i havent gotten to talk to her nearly as much as either of us would like, and that saddens me. Im sure she is also having some feelings about this, but i dont know what they are exactly and that kind of bothers me. there are 2 main reasons why we havent spoken very much since she left; the first is that i really hate talking on the phone, and the second is that ive had so much to do and its been hard to find time to do something that i hate (talking on the phone) even if it means we get to talk to each other.
3. the peachtree is coming up and i have a really high number (in the 200's) and im way to out of shape to deserve that number. ive been trying to get back in shape as quick as i can but its unlikely that ill be able to live up to the time that my number should represent. i know this is trivial and doesnt seem important, but i really wanna run fast and i dont know if ill be able to.
4. i cant sleep in my own bed because for some reason it makes my allergies act up, and i sneeze all night and wake up with red bloodshot eyes because ive been scratching them all night in my half-asleep state. so ive been sleeping in the guest room for a couple weeks cuz i havent gotten around to the laundry mat which is where my mother insists is the only place that i can wash my comforter and pillows. this sounds really lame but its just nice to sleep in your own bed, you know?
5. i drive my car way harder than i should and now when i drive it normally the tires squeek sometimes because i think theyre going bald. and the last thing i want is to have to buy new tires when theyre supposed to last for xx,xxx miles, but my parents arent going to pay for them becuase they shouldnt be bald already so theyll know that i havent been driving safely.
6. im going off to college soon and i dont know whats going to happen to me and jessica. i mean, in the back of my mind i probly know whats going to happen but i dont want to hurt her after all shes done for me. i feel like i owe her more than that, but i dont know what else to do. i cant be home all the time and she cant be there all the time, and i know there will be distractions in both places. i wish i knew what to do so that we could both be happy.
7. lastly, ive got this wicked rash right on my gooch and its killin me. see, i was at this rope swing and i was gonna swing on it from this tree. so i put my foot into the little knot at the bottom where youre supposed to put it, and jumped out of the tree. but when i was falling, my foot slipped through the knot, and my whole leg wound up through the knot and i was resting solely on my gooch when i swung down like 15 feet. talk about rope burn, but i guess it couldve been worse lol.
ok, i think thats it and i feel a lot better now that its out of my head and into this thing. i wonder if anybody reads this. send me a comment if you do, just so i can know cuz im curious. thanks, chip