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Alright so since yesterday I've had two people tell me that I just don't get it... I always thought I picked up a lot with that whole less is more thingy. But honestly its all in the head.
More and more I've realized that almost every situation/ problem is exactly the same but the people involved and the attitudes taken and used are what dictate the percieved sevreity. So raise your hand if you have a problem! Now put your hand down if your lying.
Now another random thing I tripped over recently which is... *drumroll*
I'm a clusterfuck kinda person, a not by choice by any means. Things happen to me in clusters, big annoying clusters.
ex.
1. Girls.. you all suck by the way untill futher notice :-(. Anytime it seems something might be happening, it seems like another thing might be happening too but then... everything either falls down the crapper or there was never anything there on either front; and more then certain it seems to be the second of the two.
2. Hockey. *Don't make fun of me about my hobbies. I don't make fun of you for being an asshole.*
Get another letter from the spokane braves about next years tryouts and I get inspired. I need to lose a lot of weight anyway so tryouts for Jr. is just the kinda insparation I need. I got another call today while still on holiday from the army and army reserves telling me about possible opps in playing college hockey for the army. Funny thing is I know that both options could give a shit about my playing ability and my interest in playing and just care about getting either my money to tryout or my services for the military.
3. Jobs. I got too many jobs. Mt.View, OHOA (ref) and the future rose garden zamboni job. Most are volunteer and time is based on how availible I am but I don't think "no" is the first word that I'm used to using. So that and school isn't fun.
But ya know this isn't a bitching session so much as it is just pointing things out for my own benifit. The only thing that keeps me sane and aware is knowning that it just is and that any stress I encounter is my own fault. It's all in my head and in the end worrying and stressing has no long term benifit at all. Complaining only makes the situation at hand harder. I know that if I just get overwhelmed that I need and will step back, look at the situation and after thought if needed... I can stop and start over and just say oh well. Funny thing is everyone can do that with just about anything but yet they see ants of their lives as giants and won't turn the binoculars around to correct the situation.
ALL MENTAL! Emotion is still life but life should not be spent looking for one emotional high after another. Live as you are and not as how you saw it on TV or a movie.
See now just by looking at what I have on my plate I realize how much of a whore I am for money and despite how much I object to it, it seems shallow happiness is achived by shallow means.
One more thing to ponder... Ya know that the only thing that differenciates the difference between a terrorist and a revolutionary is the size of the bullhorn? The forming of America is looked at as a revolution but yet the overthrow of the oppressive czar controll of Cuba is looked at as a terrorist action. Didn't the british think that the killing of their troops on the ideal of a few peoples new country was a terrorist act, and why do I consider Ernesto Che Guevara a true revolutionary and the state of todays Cuba is caused by the US's negitive paranoid view of communism since the 60's.
hmmmm... and with that I say goodnight for the next year or two.
Oh and yesterday I didn't get to add to the fact that I love short girls and redheaded girls that girls with glasses are noice. Oh damn and short, redheaded girls with glasses!!! Crazy-go-nuts!!!
More and more I've realized that almost every situation/ problem is exactly the same but the people involved and the attitudes taken and used are what dictate the percieved sevreity. So raise your hand if you have a problem! Now put your hand down if your lying.
Now another random thing I tripped over recently which is... *drumroll*
I'm a clusterfuck kinda person, a not by choice by any means. Things happen to me in clusters, big annoying clusters.
ex.
1. Girls.. you all suck by the way untill futher notice :-(. Anytime it seems something might be happening, it seems like another thing might be happening too but then... everything either falls down the crapper or there was never anything there on either front; and more then certain it seems to be the second of the two.
2. Hockey. *Don't make fun of me about my hobbies. I don't make fun of you for being an asshole.*
Get another letter from the spokane braves about next years tryouts and I get inspired. I need to lose a lot of weight anyway so tryouts for Jr. is just the kinda insparation I need. I got another call today while still on holiday from the army and army reserves telling me about possible opps in playing college hockey for the army. Funny thing is I know that both options could give a shit about my playing ability and my interest in playing and just care about getting either my money to tryout or my services for the military.
3. Jobs. I got too many jobs. Mt.View, OHOA (ref) and the future rose garden zamboni job. Most are volunteer and time is based on how availible I am but I don't think "no" is the first word that I'm used to using. So that and school isn't fun.
But ya know this isn't a bitching session so much as it is just pointing things out for my own benifit. The only thing that keeps me sane and aware is knowning that it just is and that any stress I encounter is my own fault. It's all in my head and in the end worrying and stressing has no long term benifit at all. Complaining only makes the situation at hand harder. I know that if I just get overwhelmed that I need and will step back, look at the situation and after thought if needed... I can stop and start over and just say oh well. Funny thing is everyone can do that with just about anything but yet they see ants of their lives as giants and won't turn the binoculars around to correct the situation.
ALL MENTAL! Emotion is still life but life should not be spent looking for one emotional high after another. Live as you are and not as how you saw it on TV or a movie.
See now just by looking at what I have on my plate I realize how much of a whore I am for money and despite how much I object to it, it seems shallow happiness is achived by shallow means.
One more thing to ponder... Ya know that the only thing that differenciates the difference between a terrorist and a revolutionary is the size of the bullhorn? The forming of America is looked at as a revolution but yet the overthrow of the oppressive czar controll of Cuba is looked at as a terrorist action. Didn't the british think that the killing of their troops on the ideal of a few peoples new country was a terrorist act, and why do I consider Ernesto Che Guevara a true revolutionary and the state of todays Cuba is caused by the US's negitive paranoid view of communism since the 60's.
hmmmm... and with that I say goodnight for the next year or two.
Oh and yesterday I didn't get to add to the fact that I love short girls and redheaded girls that girls with glasses are noice. Oh damn and short, redheaded girls with glasses!!! Crazy-go-nuts!!!