Living a lie
A lot had been going on latly that can really say to much about. I kinda feel like im keep climbing up this wall but as soon as i get to the top, i fall off. Like im trying to claw my way out of a box but its just not happening. I thing I've really gotten myself in deep this time and there is no easy way out. Someone is going to get hurt, and im the one that gonna have to do the hurting and in turn hurts me. I was thinking the other day that this is so not where i imagined my self at at 20 yrs old. I understand how the hell i keep getting myself into these situations, its like i never learn. Damn my ignorance! I wish i could just disappear. Run away and start over fresh and new where no one knows me. But then i think of Jude and just as his life depends on me, my life depends on him. Im so tired of these conflictions. Hell, im so tired period! Tired of being such a mess. And tired of living a lie.