confused
i dont know wut to do... my mind is goin on so many different directions at the same time... im geting lost... im loosing time again... theres a couple of hours from last nite i dont remember at all. ppl r telling me things im saying n doin n i have no clue wut theyre talking about. i keep finding new scratches n shit on my body daily and i am getting really scared cuz i dont like not knowing wuts goin on...ecspecially with myself. im so shakey rite now its hard for me to focus on my wrting... ths is normally how i feel before i loose time... n im tryin to make sure it doesnt happen. i am for real about deleting my myspace n this LJ soon.. just not sure as to when... my myspace will be going to nite... i still have the tears return so thats good. but i think ill delete my LJ after xmas... i dont know.... im gunna go now... maybe im just shakey cuz i need to eat... i dont know anymore...ttyl