Dating at 28...may be
First: When the socially inept is asked to a movie by the nearly equally social inept, it's really hard to tell if it's a date or just a couple of coworkers hanging out at the mall (oh, dammit, I know, okay?). Okay, fine, he paid. He kept his hands to himself (a good thing, but given the circumstances, confusing too). And I kept having the urge to shove a donut in his mouth so we wouldn't look quite so much like Jack Sprat and his wife (remember, Jack Sprat could eat no fat, his wife could eat no lean...) - not that this had anything to do with the date/not a date issue. I was just saying... And we talked a bit, which was nice. Yet it appears that I'm only going to be certain if this was a date with potential future intent if he asks me out again. I'm afraid I was still being a little standoffish, but when you work in the same room with the guy, you don't write, "I'M INTERESTED" on your forehead. Hell, what if I'm wrong and he's not, and I say I am, then it's still going to be uncomfortable.
Second: When the guy you're going out with for the first time asks how you're doing, "I think I'm gonna puke" is probably not the answer he's looking for. Yay me, though, I didn't let that thought get past my lips... And it wasn't because of him, it's because WHO THE FUCK STARTS DATING AT MY AGE????? The last guy (the FIANCE), doesn't count. That just built up over time.
Third: As I said to my sister yesterday, if I get any fatter I'm going to need a home care nurse to hold up my back fat so I can take a shit. I really, really need to get my surgery - I simply cannot stand myself anymore. The reason I can't ties in with "fourth".
Fourth: Skipped some entries, but I lost the job, left pissed, didn't find another job, got rehired at the old place, went home sick with frustration and disgust the first few days, and it's only gotten marginally better. $17,000 pay CUT over last year, and the vacuous little bitches in HR keep finding new and ever more spectacular ways to cause me grief. 3 weeks to get a working badge. 4 to get the most basic system access (I don't even have the energy to fuck with the rest of the requests yet), and then they were paying me severance, not a real check. The week my severance was supposed to end, they gave me a 40 hour check for an 80 hour pay period. That was 2 weeks ago, and they keep blowing me off. This past Thursday was another payday, and I JUST got a promise of having a check cut - was supposed to get it Friday or Monday, of course Friday didn't happen, so either I get my money on Monday or I go home early, because enough is efuckingnough. And on this check, you guessed it, they cut off my fucking health insurance. I noticed this because I was trying to make a prelim appt with a surgeon since this takes months to get into play, and they said my insurance wasn't good. I checked the pay stub, and sure enough, this was the first cycle they didn't deduct any health insurance money. So of course, i emailed HR and the boss, but haven't heard back yet. I DARE them to tell me I have to wait for open enrollment for them to fix their mistake. I have a plan for this. I plan to tell the boss, in HR, that I will be needing to leave early a couple of days each week to pursue my job search. Then I plan to actually DO it.
Fifth and Final (for now): The job I applied for at (unnamed local hospital) first, before I left the current company, never got back to me. However, the job is still posted on their website...I'm thinking about contacting them to find out what the deal is, and what I need to do to get the job. Let's face facts, I need more money, I need to be somewhere that I will have room for growth, it's the exact job I've been trying to get HERE for years which is never going to happen, and if things work out with my MaybeDate, we'd have a better chance of making things work if we're not together ALLTHETIME, like we'd be if we worked together too.
Anyway, I've gotta start shoveling shit in here tomorrow, so I can let this guy in the house at some point if it gets there, and I can't do that until I pick up light bulbs, so I need to get an early start...
And one more (yeah, yeah): Silent Hill sucked ass. Up to the end, the parts that were supposed to be scary were just funny, and not the intentional kind of funny, and at the end, the "scary" parts were just disgusting. He liked it, though, so I'd watch it again. I draw the line at Nascar, though... :)
Second: When the guy you're going out with for the first time asks how you're doing, "I think I'm gonna puke" is probably not the answer he's looking for. Yay me, though, I didn't let that thought get past my lips... And it wasn't because of him, it's because WHO THE FUCK STARTS DATING AT MY AGE????? The last guy (the FIANCE), doesn't count. That just built up over time.
Third: As I said to my sister yesterday, if I get any fatter I'm going to need a home care nurse to hold up my back fat so I can take a shit. I really, really need to get my surgery - I simply cannot stand myself anymore. The reason I can't ties in with "fourth".
Fourth: Skipped some entries, but I lost the job, left pissed, didn't find another job, got rehired at the old place, went home sick with frustration and disgust the first few days, and it's only gotten marginally better. $17,000 pay CUT over last year, and the vacuous little bitches in HR keep finding new and ever more spectacular ways to cause me grief. 3 weeks to get a working badge. 4 to get the most basic system access (I don't even have the energy to fuck with the rest of the requests yet), and then they were paying me severance, not a real check. The week my severance was supposed to end, they gave me a 40 hour check for an 80 hour pay period. That was 2 weeks ago, and they keep blowing me off. This past Thursday was another payday, and I JUST got a promise of having a check cut - was supposed to get it Friday or Monday, of course Friday didn't happen, so either I get my money on Monday or I go home early, because enough is efuckingnough. And on this check, you guessed it, they cut off my fucking health insurance. I noticed this because I was trying to make a prelim appt with a surgeon since this takes months to get into play, and they said my insurance wasn't good. I checked the pay stub, and sure enough, this was the first cycle they didn't deduct any health insurance money. So of course, i emailed HR and the boss, but haven't heard back yet. I DARE them to tell me I have to wait for open enrollment for them to fix their mistake. I have a plan for this. I plan to tell the boss, in HR, that I will be needing to leave early a couple of days each week to pursue my job search. Then I plan to actually DO it.
Fifth and Final (for now): The job I applied for at (unnamed local hospital) first, before I left the current company, never got back to me. However, the job is still posted on their website...I'm thinking about contacting them to find out what the deal is, and what I need to do to get the job. Let's face facts, I need more money, I need to be somewhere that I will have room for growth, it's the exact job I've been trying to get HERE for years which is never going to happen, and if things work out with my MaybeDate, we'd have a better chance of making things work if we're not together ALLTHETIME, like we'd be if we worked together too.
Anyway, I've gotta start shoveling shit in here tomorrow, so I can let this guy in the house at some point if it gets there, and I can't do that until I pick up light bulbs, so I need to get an early start...
And one more (yeah, yeah): Silent Hill sucked ass. Up to the end, the parts that were supposed to be scary were just funny, and not the intentional kind of funny, and at the end, the "scary" parts were just disgusting. He liked it, though, so I'd watch it again. I draw the line at Nascar, though... :)