Serious Anxiety
Ok so basically I am having the worst anxiety of my life, and I have absolutely no idea why. Like, I have a few guesses but I am not really nervous or sad or angry and nothing is going on that is overwhelming in my life so I am sooo confused.
Possible Reasons:
#1- I am getting my nose pierced tomorrow, but I am excited about it not in a nervous way, and I really want to get it done, and I got a tattoo and if I can do that this should be nothing. So I am pretty sure that isn't it.
#2- Australia. Now I know this doesn't seem like it would be a problem, but even as I am typing this I feel the flip. I don't think I want to go. I know I was so excited for so long and it is a opportunity I shouldn't pass up and I don't want to regret not going but something about it...I don't know...I don't feel right about. I mean sure it would be overcoming every fear I have ever had but I really do not think over coming these fears is for me. I love home and I love school and I DO NOT WANT TO LEAVE! I don't want to miss four months of my life here, I don't want to miss my family and friends and I don't want to go. There I said it. I DO WANT TO GO ANYMORE! I am allowed to change my mind right? I HAVE NO IDEA~! I mean I think I am still going to apply because i want the opportunity to be there and then I will decide but I don't know. I feel like such a loser and a failure for not wanting to go. I mean everyone wants to go abroad right?
Seriously whoever is reading this I am a mess, my heart and my stomach have the most anxious and awful feelings I have ever felt in my LIFE! SOMEONE HELP! Am I crazy?
Tricia
Possible Reasons:
#1- I am getting my nose pierced tomorrow, but I am excited about it not in a nervous way, and I really want to get it done, and I got a tattoo and if I can do that this should be nothing. So I am pretty sure that isn't it.
#2- Australia. Now I know this doesn't seem like it would be a problem, but even as I am typing this I feel the flip. I don't think I want to go. I know I was so excited for so long and it is a opportunity I shouldn't pass up and I don't want to regret not going but something about it...I don't know...I don't feel right about. I mean sure it would be overcoming every fear I have ever had but I really do not think over coming these fears is for me. I love home and I love school and I DO NOT WANT TO LEAVE! I don't want to miss four months of my life here, I don't want to miss my family and friends and I don't want to go. There I said it. I DO WANT TO GO ANYMORE! I am allowed to change my mind right? I HAVE NO IDEA~! I mean I think I am still going to apply because i want the opportunity to be there and then I will decide but I don't know. I feel like such a loser and a failure for not wanting to go. I mean everyone wants to go abroad right?
Seriously whoever is reading this I am a mess, my heart and my stomach have the most anxious and awful feelings I have ever felt in my LIFE! SOMEONE HELP! Am I crazy?
Tricia