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I just want to go back home.
I thought I was happy here, but after last night, all of us talking and being happy and getting along, and knowing that all 5 people in the room with me are my friends and that they care about me and I care about them...it just really made me miss everything I used to have. The high school part--not so much. The drama...hell no. But just the way everything was...the way I could say whatever and not have to worry about people judging me--I do something stupid, my friends laugh. I do something they don't agree with--they love me anyways. I just don't have that here--and it sucks that I thought I did.
So to the 5 girls who were there last night...thank you. I love you all so much, and I can't wait to see you on Thanksgiving Break. It's a long time-but I think I can make it. And try to be happy wherever you are-things will change (whether it changes on its own or we decide to change it ourselves) and get better later I'm sure, but this is what we have now. And know that even if we go weeks or months without talking...if you need me, call me up, IM me, drive down to PA and find me...and I'll be there for as long as you need.
And everyone else who I haven't talked to since graduation...I do miss you, and even if we don't talk now, it still will be great if I get to see you at Thanksgiving...I really hope you're all happy.
Well I'm going to do homework and try to follow my own advice...
But I still miss home.
I thought I was happy here, but after last night, all of us talking and being happy and getting along, and knowing that all 5 people in the room with me are my friends and that they care about me and I care about them...it just really made me miss everything I used to have. The high school part--not so much. The drama...hell no. But just the way everything was...the way I could say whatever and not have to worry about people judging me--I do something stupid, my friends laugh. I do something they don't agree with--they love me anyways. I just don't have that here--and it sucks that I thought I did.
So to the 5 girls who were there last night...thank you. I love you all so much, and I can't wait to see you on Thanksgiving Break. It's a long time-but I think I can make it. And try to be happy wherever you are-things will change (whether it changes on its own or we decide to change it ourselves) and get better later I'm sure, but this is what we have now. And know that even if we go weeks or months without talking...if you need me, call me up, IM me, drive down to PA and find me...and I'll be there for as long as you need.
And everyone else who I haven't talked to since graduation...I do miss you, and even if we don't talk now, it still will be great if I get to see you at Thanksgiving...I really hope you're all happy.
Well I'm going to do homework and try to follow my own advice...
But I still miss home.