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wow so i never write anymore. I never get online anymore either. I never get enough sleep. There's a lot I never get to do anymore and I"m thinking it will only get worse.
So Rami is back from San Francisco now. He bought me a ring. Its almost creepy how much it looks like my old one from eric. Its got the same shape only a lot bigger. A little gawdy for me but i still like it. Nto worth tooo much either if i'im right about it being just onyx and marceson chips. So uh he is moving to San Francisco now. Only came back to Stillwater to "pick me up" and leave again. Of course I can't go until december which he is a little freaked about but whatever I have to at least get my highschool diploma right? And then I can finish my degree correspondence. His sister has some college deal where we'd only go to school for 3-4 years and have our masters in medical school. I could totally handle that. How I'm going to make it in San Francisco i don't know. But Rami's Dad is doing some lincoln navigator deal between libya and America and stands to make about 200 million, Rami gets 20% of that. Way cool. Woudl he pay for my college you think?? doubt it. And I dont' want to move over there and give up my school temporarily and be dependant on him so that if something happened I would be stuck with no way home and no college and no home and no money. I really am not ready to take this relationship that far. man I just decided i was going to move in with him in November now i'm supposed to be okay with moving to CALIFORNIA in DECEMBER!! AHHHHHHH.... Way too fast for trishy. Not to mention my whole family hates him. And I'm sure his family won't like me either. I'm not exactly in the same class as them. Everyone in his family is a self made millionaire. Grew up with servants bringing them breakfast in the monring and WASHING HIS CAR EVERYNIGHT so it was clean in the morning. How badd ass is that?? Now i coudl live like that. But i mean how different are we?
But hey on a good note. We had a our first real serious conversation about life and our pasts and futures and dreams last night for like 2 hours. First REAL conversation in 2 months.
Sex, well I think i told the whoel world how bad he was in bed in the beginning. He just assumed that when he was done i was done and when he was excited I was excited and when i wans't excited because I knew if i geot excited i just get let down because sex isn't to please the woman he forced his way in anyway. Am i getting to graphic?? lol Well yeah so the last few days since he's been back I've had my first orgasm with him lol Took him three months but yeah. here I am. So maybe things will start getting better??
Well whatever. I'm flying to washington next week to see my sister. But no one get your hopes up I'll only be there 2 days. Won't see anyone but her. Not even my dad or step mom. I'm just staying in Spokane at her new apt. Can't wait. Miss her like crazy. Well I ought to go cuz i have stuff to do :)
So Rami is back from San Francisco now. He bought me a ring. Its almost creepy how much it looks like my old one from eric. Its got the same shape only a lot bigger. A little gawdy for me but i still like it. Nto worth tooo much either if i'im right about it being just onyx and marceson chips. So uh he is moving to San Francisco now. Only came back to Stillwater to "pick me up" and leave again. Of course I can't go until december which he is a little freaked about but whatever I have to at least get my highschool diploma right? And then I can finish my degree correspondence. His sister has some college deal where we'd only go to school for 3-4 years and have our masters in medical school. I could totally handle that. How I'm going to make it in San Francisco i don't know. But Rami's Dad is doing some lincoln navigator deal between libya and America and stands to make about 200 million, Rami gets 20% of that. Way cool. Woudl he pay for my college you think?? doubt it. And I dont' want to move over there and give up my school temporarily and be dependant on him so that if something happened I would be stuck with no way home and no college and no home and no money. I really am not ready to take this relationship that far. man I just decided i was going to move in with him in November now i'm supposed to be okay with moving to CALIFORNIA in DECEMBER!! AHHHHHHH.... Way too fast for trishy. Not to mention my whole family hates him. And I'm sure his family won't like me either. I'm not exactly in the same class as them. Everyone in his family is a self made millionaire. Grew up with servants bringing them breakfast in the monring and WASHING HIS CAR EVERYNIGHT so it was clean in the morning. How badd ass is that?? Now i coudl live like that. But i mean how different are we?
But hey on a good note. We had a our first real serious conversation about life and our pasts and futures and dreams last night for like 2 hours. First REAL conversation in 2 months.
Sex, well I think i told the whoel world how bad he was in bed in the beginning. He just assumed that when he was done i was done and when he was excited I was excited and when i wans't excited because I knew if i geot excited i just get let down because sex isn't to please the woman he forced his way in anyway. Am i getting to graphic?? lol Well yeah so the last few days since he's been back I've had my first orgasm with him lol Took him three months but yeah. here I am. So maybe things will start getting better??
Well whatever. I'm flying to washington next week to see my sister. But no one get your hopes up I'll only be there 2 days. Won't see anyone but her. Not even my dad or step mom. I'm just staying in Spokane at her new apt. Can't wait. Miss her like crazy. Well I ought to go cuz i have stuff to do :)