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So, I guess the boyfriend has had something of an epithany.
He apologized to me last night.....for how he's been treating me for the past 2 years.
It's weird. I thought this was something he had ralized worked out already, but I guess not.
He actually did the thing that I have never seen him do, and admitted his own role in his bad relationships with other people.
He doesn't know how to change, though.
I'm not sure what's going to happen to the relationship, this really changes things for me. I've been pushing him away because he was shutting me out so much and now, it's like I don't know how to act towards him. Realizing now that he really was totally oblivious to how he was treating me and feels completely guilty about it and wants to change gives me hope for the relationship. But he was talking about how much more important the friendship was than the relationship and it sounds like he wants to "just try and be friends" for a while. That will be hard. The problem is that he doesn't have any real friends, no one that he can count on, except me. And I have plenty of friends, friends that would help you get rid of a body kind of friends and what I want is a relationship. So I guess I'll wait and see. See how how long it takes to sort himself out. I don't want to wait around forever for the relationship part, though.
He apologized to me last night.....for how he's been treating me for the past 2 years.
It's weird. I thought this was something he had ralized worked out already, but I guess not.
He actually did the thing that I have never seen him do, and admitted his own role in his bad relationships with other people.
He doesn't know how to change, though.
I'm not sure what's going to happen to the relationship, this really changes things for me. I've been pushing him away because he was shutting me out so much and now, it's like I don't know how to act towards him. Realizing now that he really was totally oblivious to how he was treating me and feels completely guilty about it and wants to change gives me hope for the relationship. But he was talking about how much more important the friendship was than the relationship and it sounds like he wants to "just try and be friends" for a while. That will be hard. The problem is that he doesn't have any real friends, no one that he can count on, except me. And I have plenty of friends, friends that would help you get rid of a body kind of friends and what I want is a relationship. So I guess I'll wait and see. See how how long it takes to sort himself out. I don't want to wait around forever for the relationship part, though.