The huge leaps forward.....
Some days I feel like I really really need to blog. and since I first started typing this there's been another whirlpool open up in front of me.
Had a big week of emotions up and down a bit of a rollercoaster....had the delight of a weekend in Stanthorpe and then had a mixed reaction when I'd tagged pics on facebook, to find that the situation wasnt as clear as I'd thought...a big heart to heart finally made me more aware of where things are, where I stand, what needs to be done moving forward...
The weekend gone was great, finally started meeting some of Vaughn's family - had dinner friday night with his cousin at Tamborine Mountain, and meeting some family and interracting was great. Seeing Vaughn talking to his cousin's mate Steven....two hot guys with babies, I tell you talk about making my loins melt!! woke up saturday morning all relaxed, headed back to Brissy and went on a domestic binge...cooking and met up with Gay for a girlie catchup, and Sarah came back for a visit with Alex and we took off for lunch....I'd missed Alex so much!
Saturday night we planned to go to the movies...Vaughn came up and let me know he'd spoken to his sister, and she'd been curious about who I was and he told her I'm wonderful and made him happier than he's been in a long time! :) he was crushed that his ex had put the kybosh on his planned visit with Sarah planned for Sunday and I encouraged him to go over and talk to her and visit.
Sunday dawned and I went off to get my hair done, Vaughn went off to visit with Sarah, and came back with his happiness meter off the radar....there'd been a discussion where he shared that we went to Stanthorpe and he told her about me, and there was talk about his access to Sarah being every week...went to sleep happy and content (except for annoying nose running) and planning our trip to NZ again....this time being a whirlwind trip just him and I.
Today....the ex sends him an email asking his thoughts on taking sarah to NZ = the two of them....before Sarah turns 2, and what does he think? and im like - ohhhh man what a mess. sooo many issues there....none of them officially mine but they affect him, like what msg does that send, does she not realise im here? does she not trust him to do that on his own? especially given everyone over there is HIS family....oh mr hart. what a mess
Had a big week of emotions up and down a bit of a rollercoaster....had the delight of a weekend in Stanthorpe and then had a mixed reaction when I'd tagged pics on facebook, to find that the situation wasnt as clear as I'd thought...a big heart to heart finally made me more aware of where things are, where I stand, what needs to be done moving forward...
The weekend gone was great, finally started meeting some of Vaughn's family - had dinner friday night with his cousin at Tamborine Mountain, and meeting some family and interracting was great. Seeing Vaughn talking to his cousin's mate Steven....two hot guys with babies, I tell you talk about making my loins melt!! woke up saturday morning all relaxed, headed back to Brissy and went on a domestic binge...cooking and met up with Gay for a girlie catchup, and Sarah came back for a visit with Alex and we took off for lunch....I'd missed Alex so much!
Saturday night we planned to go to the movies...Vaughn came up and let me know he'd spoken to his sister, and she'd been curious about who I was and he told her I'm wonderful and made him happier than he's been in a long time! :) he was crushed that his ex had put the kybosh on his planned visit with Sarah planned for Sunday and I encouraged him to go over and talk to her and visit.
Sunday dawned and I went off to get my hair done, Vaughn went off to visit with Sarah, and came back with his happiness meter off the radar....there'd been a discussion where he shared that we went to Stanthorpe and he told her about me, and there was talk about his access to Sarah being every week...went to sleep happy and content (except for annoying nose running) and planning our trip to NZ again....this time being a whirlwind trip just him and I.
Today....the ex sends him an email asking his thoughts on taking sarah to NZ = the two of them....before Sarah turns 2, and what does he think? and im like - ohhhh man what a mess. sooo many issues there....none of them officially mine but they affect him, like what msg does that send, does she not realise im here? does she not trust him to do that on his own? especially given everyone over there is HIS family....oh mr hart. what a mess