just some thoughts
love left me all alone and i wish i could let it die. it means nothing to him, nor do i, he just wants to be rid of us both, the worst things in his life.biggest mistake.
why didnt he finish it earlier? i know he wanted to so why didnt he? everything he said was a lie a complete and utter lie. why doesnt he just rip me open and tear up my heart. all he wants from me now is worthless meaningless sex. thats all i am to him now, just a lump of meat he can stick his dick in when ever he chooses. i cant help but let him, i love him, i hate him, but i cant get over him, he is pat of my world, who am i kidding he is my world. everyother person in my life is just a blur, only my closest friends come throgh clear anymore.its like he enjoys this, seeing me fall to pieces over him he means everthing to me how come i mean nothing to him? i once thought it would last forever,he told me it would.forever is a hell of a lot shorter than i thought. its like im drowning on the air, im finding it harder and harder to breathe i wish that when i closed my eyes it would all just disappear, but it wont, it haunts me, cant eat cant sleep cant rest cant work cant live without him. he lives without me easily. he wants to be friends like nothing ever happend. how can he expect me to just forgive and forget? just leave me alone ryan just get out of my life the only thing is without you i would die. i guess all i have left to say is i love you
why didnt he finish it earlier? i know he wanted to so why didnt he? everything he said was a lie a complete and utter lie. why doesnt he just rip me open and tear up my heart. all he wants from me now is worthless meaningless sex. thats all i am to him now, just a lump of meat he can stick his dick in when ever he chooses. i cant help but let him, i love him, i hate him, but i cant get over him, he is pat of my world, who am i kidding he is my world. everyother person in my life is just a blur, only my closest friends come throgh clear anymore.its like he enjoys this, seeing me fall to pieces over him he means everthing to me how come i mean nothing to him? i once thought it would last forever,he told me it would.forever is a hell of a lot shorter than i thought. its like im drowning on the air, im finding it harder and harder to breathe i wish that when i closed my eyes it would all just disappear, but it wont, it haunts me, cant eat cant sleep cant rest cant work cant live without him. he lives without me easily. he wants to be friends like nothing ever happend. how can he expect me to just forgive and forget? just leave me alone ryan just get out of my life the only thing is without you i would die. i guess all i have left to say is i love you