omg
ok i thought i was over ryan.. i mean the so called spark had gone.. even when he touched me there was nothing.. but then today somthing happened... not even anythign spectacular... we were just playing round in the dance studio at lunch time and we started a bottle fight and i dunno just one look he gave me and he had my stomach doing back flips allover again.. i was damnin my self fo letting happen after everthing he has done to me.. the hurt he has caused me.. and here i am falling for him agen.. thing is im not even sure if i want him anymore... i think i need a change i need some one new anyone new.. male female, whatever im not bothered i just need to get him out of my head. but the more i try ot get im of my head .. the more he sticks.. argh! i hate him i love him i need him i want him i dunno anymore. thing is im sure he thinks i *do* hate him ... but there are so many other ppl in the world .. and if moching round afta him means im gonna miss them... am i willing to let that happen... but do i want to lose him becasue of sumbody else? i thought that had happened already but it seems t isnt so .. grr i hate boys....