Jan 26, 2007 01:53
After reading my sweetheart's latest journal entry today, I realized that I hadn't updated in quite awhile either. My last post was a bit negative, and almost immediately after that, everything changed. I got my dream job, so no more convenience store - now or ever. Once again, I have an office and spend many of my days lazily surfing the web and chatting, all while getting paid to do it. Admittedly, there are some days where I have to actually work, and for extremely long hours, though it never really seems like work. I tasted this once before without realizing it, but now I'm convinced that I've finally grasped the rare opportunity of being one of those lucky few individuals who have a job that is more than just a means to an end. I have a job that I enjoy doing and don't dread going to every day. On top of that, I couldn't have dreamed of getting better bosses. I absolutely love them! They show me respect and value the contributions I make to the company. They relate to me as an individual on their level, instead of as a lowly peon like I'd become so accustomed to in the past. Best of all, they have a vast wealth of connections and resources that have now been granted to me. I can go to them with a problem, and before I know it, they've made the problem go away. It was today that I realized how invincible that kind of power makes me feel. Every object that is thrown in my path, even those that would have seemed insurmountable just a few months ago, practically falls away before I have time to give it a second thought. The only complaint I can make is that the pay is a lot less than I'd hoped for. However, I have confidence that once the company really gets off the ground, I will be receiving much greater compensation for my time. I can't wait until that happens, so that I can finally say I've found more than just a job. If ever there was anything for me to make a career out of, this is it.
If the blossoming career weren't enough to be happy about, there's still my relationship with Erin. When we're together, she makes me happier than I ever thought I could be. I still feel my legs weaken and get butterflies in my stomach every time I see her after several days of absence. I wake up every morning more in love with her than I was the day before. Even when we fight, I can't bring myself to be mad at her. She's been having a rough time with life lately, and we tend to get into arguments with increasing frequency, but it never diminishes our relationship or the flame that burns within my soul for her. I know she's the one for me, and I know it with every fiber of my being. The only thing keeping us apart is time. So, our relationship has become something of a waiting game. In the short run, we spend our hours and days apart waiting for the next time that we can be together. In the long run, we spend our weeks and months together waiting for the time that we no longer have to be apart. I know that the time will inevitably come, but until then, why does waiting for it have to be so hard?