Fanatical
Fanatical
Part 14
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Orlando Bloom/OMC
Summary: Alexander loves Orlando Bloom. He’s Orlando’s number one fan and he is determined to make Orlando love him.
Warnings: Stalking, kidnapping, non con but no rape or violence.
A/N: Though this is a dark story there will be a happy ending . Also I think I changed tenses somewhere but I’m not sure.
Disclaimer: The only person I own is Alexander. I make no claims on Orlando’s life and I don’t know him. All I know is that he is a sexy Mo-Fo
I looked this over but there might be some grammar mistakes.
Beta: OK I lied, the next chapter will be beta'd so the update won't be as quick but at least there won't be any mistakes.
One Month Later
“Hello Orlando. How are you feeling today?”
Orlando sat across his therapist and sighed. “I’m alright.”
“Are you sure? You look a little tense today.”
“Um, they won’t let Lex talk to me. They said we need time apart.”
Sandra nodded. “That is for the best right now.”
“But I miss him.” Orlando said with a pout.
“I know. But you both need to realize that what he did was wrong.”
“But…”
“No Orlando. You may love him and he may love you, and that’s wonderful, but this, what he did was wrong. And you have to understand that no one has the right to do what he did.”
Orlando stood up and walked to the window. It was a beautiful day out, but he felt so ugly inside. He felt so mixed up and confused. It took him awhile before he spoke. “You know, while I was there, I was scared and so mad at him for what he did. All I wanted to do was go home.”
“That’s normal.”
“But, then, I don’t know, I just, started liking him, as a person. He’s so nice and sweet. He takes care of me.”
Sandra nodded. “I don’t doubt your love for him Orlando, but it’s alright to be angry for making you feel so powerless.”
Orlando blinked letting a tear fall from his eye. “I hate him for that. I mean, I wouldn’t want someone I love to suffer. He made me suffer.”
“Yes he did.”
“But I love him.”
“I know.”
“Is that wrong?”
“Love is never wrong if it’s healthy.”
“Is that healthy?”
“In your situation yes. The love came after the hurt Orlando. You have yet to deal with the hurt.”
“I’m mad at him.”
“Good. You should be.”
“But I miss him.”
“Good, you should.”
It was so confusing but this woman seemed to understand perfectly. “You are the only one that believes I really love him.” Orlando said as he turned to face her again. “Why do you?”
“Because I don’t think you’re sick. I think you need to deal with what happened to you. I think you have to realize that if you choose to stay with this man, you will look into the face of the man that can cause a great amount of fear in your life.”
“But he is also the man that holds my heart.”
“Orlando, that is a problem everyone in love has. The person you love can cause you so much pain and usually does. It’s just a question of whether you think he’s worth it. ”
“I do.”
“Then let’s stop acting like what he did wasn’t wrong. Let’s deal with this anger and fear so that when he comes out, you’ll be able to love him right. I guarantee that is what he’s doing for you.”
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“Why can’t I call Orlando?” Lex demanded and answer from his therapist, Henry, with his arms crossed across his chest and his foot tapping the floor.
Henry was unimpressed. He dealt with this type of thing all the time. “Hello Alexander. How are you feeling today?”
“Fine. Why can’t I call Orlando?”
“You need some time apart right now Alex. He has to get better and so do you. That is what is best right now.”
“Get better? There is nothing wrong with Orlando and there is nothing wrong with me.”
“That is where you are wrong. There something wrong with Orlando and there is something wrong with you.” Henry didn’t believe in sugar coding. People like Alexander needed it raw. “Orlando I’m sure is dealing with his problems without complaint so that he can see you faster. I’m positive he would be hurt to hear that you aren’t trying so hard.”
That got Lex’ attention. “I’m trying.” For some reason there is not way to say that sentence and still sound angry.
“Are you? You come into my office yelling like a madman. I don’t see that as trying. Now can we sit down and talk about this like normal people, or would you like this process to take even longer?”
Alexander uncrossed his arms and sat down in a near by chair. “I’ll behave.” After a pause he added, “But I miss him.”
Now that Alexander was more subdued, Henry let his tone drop. “I know. But you both need to realize that what you did was wrong.”
“But…”
“No Alex. You may love him and he may love you, and that’s wonderful, but what you did was wrong. And you have to understand that no one has the right to take someone with their consent. No matter how good you think your intensions were you scared him and hurt him by taking him away from his family.”
Alexander sighed. “I just wanted to show him that I loved him. But he was so hesitant at first. He didn’t trust me at all.”
“That’s normal. People don‘t tend to trust their kidnapers. Make no mistake Alex that is what you are.”
“But he started to trust me. Henry, he started to love me and I realized that he was everything I wanted. I just wanted to protect him.”
Henry understood that feeling. He felt it for his wife and three daughters. “I don’t doubt your love for him Orlando, but you rendered him powerless. What if someone took him from you and kept him locked away claiming that was what was best for him? Would you believe that? Should Orlando just believe them?”
Alexander had never thought about it like that. What is family must have felt not knowing that his intentions were good. What Orlando must have felt being alone and taken unable to fight for his own freedom. “I hurt him Henry.”
“Yes you did.”
“But I love him.”
“I know.”
“And he loves me. I, I hope he does.”
“Now you have doubts?”
“What if he starts to feel as if I’m a monster. What if his therapist makes him realize that I did wrong by him?”
“What if she does? If your love is real, Orlando will see past that and think of the times that you made him feel better. You have to realize Alex, love isn’t about forcing someone to see life through you eyes, it’s about both of you coming together, and wanting to see life together.”
“I never meant to hurt him.”
“Good. That makes me happy.”
“I have to… I want to make it so that I never make him afraid of me again. I want to make so that I never hurt him like that again.”
“You will. That’s why you are here. We are going to get you better.”
“What do I have to do to talk to him again?”
“You can’t get better for him you have to want to get better for you. You have to accept the possibility that he may not want a relationship with you.”
Alexander wanted to cry. He had never thought that as a possibility. He had never thought it was possible that Orlando might not want anything to do with him. “I just don’t want to hurt him.”
Henry sighed. They had a lot of work to do. “That’s a start.”