Good week
Despite other things that have been going on recently in my life, this last week has been fantastic. It really helped to see my friend Jordyn this week. She's been very supportive, and has done a lot to include me in her activities this week.
I've had dinner a couple of times this week with new people. This is new and exciting to me, if a bit nerve-wracking. I feel like I managed to hold up my end of the conversations, though. Well, sorta.
And some of the issues that have been playing on my mind, lately, I've managed to, to some extent, confront and deal with. It really bothers me how up and down I've been feeling about one particular issue. As soon as I think I've got it under my thumb, some emotions rear back up and unhorse me. Almost always soon following opening my mouth about how under control I've gotten it.
It may be too soon to say, really, but I think I've found an exercise that is really enjoyable. Skating was a blast, and I've been sore for a couple of days now from it. It was a huge workout, I couldn't really get enough of it, and nothing about it "felt" like exercise at the time. :) I've often wondered if athletic persons had an athletic build as a result of sports, or if their willingness to play and enjoy sports came from having an athletic build. I think now that the build comes with the sport; you just have to find something you really enjoy doing. I've never enjoyed exercise for the sake of exercise. I can enjoy it when I'm using it to punish myself, but not really for any other reason that I've discovered.
I was feeling very jealous/hurt about some things I felt like I was seeing play out in front of me. A) I feel like I was probably reading into things that weren't there. B) It was none of my business. Part A bugged me more than part B. Yeah, it was none of my business, but I am still, apparently, emotionally invested. So part B is a bit more forgivable to me. But A isn't. Seeing hurtful shadows in corners where there are none is a problem. As much as I don't want to, I've made steps to separate myself from one of the persons. Not because I don't want to be their friend, and not because I don't like them. I very much do want to be their friend and I very much do still like the person. I guess I really don't know what to do. They offered me space at the beginning, but I didn't want it. I don't know why. Anyway, I still don't want it, but I have begun to believe that maybe I do need it.
On a similar front, being somewhat afraid that I might be doing to someone else what happened to me, I had a little talk with them. They assured me that things were fine; none-the-less, I think I'll be tip-toeing around that for a bit.
Things with the new roommate are going great. He's nice and laid back. We seem to get along well. The cats are playing/sparring, and that makes me chortle. The environment is welcoming. All in all, things are as good as I could ask.
I've seen a band live, partied, skated, had several lunches and dinners, hung out, talked, confronted issues internally, confronted some potential issues externally... The sun is shining, the sky is clear, and my motorcycle is running smooth. This week has been so up that even the gas prices are starting to catch the spirit. Wait... oh... :(
So this has been an awesome week. This, of course, can only mean that an airline engine is going to crash into my bed soon.
I've had dinner a couple of times this week with new people. This is new and exciting to me, if a bit nerve-wracking. I feel like I managed to hold up my end of the conversations, though. Well, sorta.
And some of the issues that have been playing on my mind, lately, I've managed to, to some extent, confront and deal with. It really bothers me how up and down I've been feeling about one particular issue. As soon as I think I've got it under my thumb, some emotions rear back up and unhorse me. Almost always soon following opening my mouth about how under control I've gotten it.
It may be too soon to say, really, but I think I've found an exercise that is really enjoyable. Skating was a blast, and I've been sore for a couple of days now from it. It was a huge workout, I couldn't really get enough of it, and nothing about it "felt" like exercise at the time. :) I've often wondered if athletic persons had an athletic build as a result of sports, or if their willingness to play and enjoy sports came from having an athletic build. I think now that the build comes with the sport; you just have to find something you really enjoy doing. I've never enjoyed exercise for the sake of exercise. I can enjoy it when I'm using it to punish myself, but not really for any other reason that I've discovered.
I was feeling very jealous/hurt about some things I felt like I was seeing play out in front of me. A) I feel like I was probably reading into things that weren't there. B) It was none of my business. Part A bugged me more than part B. Yeah, it was none of my business, but I am still, apparently, emotionally invested. So part B is a bit more forgivable to me. But A isn't. Seeing hurtful shadows in corners where there are none is a problem. As much as I don't want to, I've made steps to separate myself from one of the persons. Not because I don't want to be their friend, and not because I don't like them. I very much do want to be their friend and I very much do still like the person. I guess I really don't know what to do. They offered me space at the beginning, but I didn't want it. I don't know why. Anyway, I still don't want it, but I have begun to believe that maybe I do need it.
On a similar front, being somewhat afraid that I might be doing to someone else what happened to me, I had a little talk with them. They assured me that things were fine; none-the-less, I think I'll be tip-toeing around that for a bit.
Things with the new roommate are going great. He's nice and laid back. We seem to get along well. The cats are playing/sparring, and that makes me chortle. The environment is welcoming. All in all, things are as good as I could ask.
I've seen a band live, partied, skated, had several lunches and dinners, hung out, talked, confronted issues internally, confronted some potential issues externally... The sun is shining, the sky is clear, and my motorcycle is running smooth. This week has been so up that even the gas prices are starting to catch the spirit. Wait... oh... :(
So this has been an awesome week. This, of course, can only mean that an airline engine is going to crash into my bed soon.