Am I Dreaming?
I am seriously speechless as I know my words are not able to express the regret I am feeling, the regret knowing that my friend, my bandmate Mikey whom I could have helped to get his mind off wanting bad things is now gone, and it hurts me so much, it hurts me knowing that I couldn't have saved him as a concerned friend would save another friend in need, but now I cant! Why couldn't have Jason or Harry's passing have been a wakeup call
I remember the first time me and him met, it was when my first band The Horrid Affair was looking for a guitarist, everyone we tried out just didn't cut it, they didn't have what we felt it took to be able to be in this band. When all hopes were almost lost along this guy came that would prove to be one of the best guitarists I have had the chance to know and love as my brother and now he is gone
Life is fucking unfair but we all must go one day weither it be young or old we are all destined to die, but why did it have to be him, why did this have to happen to him?
His life was getting back on track and after a conflict that left me and him not in touch as friends for months was all working out, it seemed everything was as it was and now he is fucking gone
As I went over to his house the other night to give my respects to his grieving girlfriend, mother, father, nephew, sister, and sisters boyfriend I was so wishing when I got that the person that would answer the door would be Mikey but it wasn't. I went into this bedroom desperately wishing he would be there but he wasn't, and as a person who has never cried over a friend that passed away being at his house really did it for me, he wasn't there, and I will never get to let him know how much he truely meant to me
I am about to go for a drive and jam the music that I have in my collection that he enjoyed listening to, maybe he will be able to hear me and know I will never forget him, my brother, my friend you hold a piece of my heart that the years passing and no person will ever be able to replace
He was the first person that went with me to get a tattoo also, as much as I wanted to get it covered up, it is now forever going to on my left arm, more will be added onto it in his memory
This really sucks and it all seems to be hitting me again like it just happened
But for some reason I know it will take a long time for me to truely know he is gone
I love you Mikey, you were the best, I know we will see each other again one day
Also to those people who read this and know people who have a problem with a substance please get them help, get them your love, let them know you care, let them know there are so many more things to look forward to in life, yes I was down the path once and I am glad that I dropped the habit. Life is short, dont take it for granted, we only live once so enjoy it
I remember the first time me and him met, it was when my first band The Horrid Affair was looking for a guitarist, everyone we tried out just didn't cut it, they didn't have what we felt it took to be able to be in this band. When all hopes were almost lost along this guy came that would prove to be one of the best guitarists I have had the chance to know and love as my brother and now he is gone
Life is fucking unfair but we all must go one day weither it be young or old we are all destined to die, but why did it have to be him, why did this have to happen to him?
His life was getting back on track and after a conflict that left me and him not in touch as friends for months was all working out, it seemed everything was as it was and now he is fucking gone
As I went over to his house the other night to give my respects to his grieving girlfriend, mother, father, nephew, sister, and sisters boyfriend I was so wishing when I got that the person that would answer the door would be Mikey but it wasn't. I went into this bedroom desperately wishing he would be there but he wasn't, and as a person who has never cried over a friend that passed away being at his house really did it for me, he wasn't there, and I will never get to let him know how much he truely meant to me
I am about to go for a drive and jam the music that I have in my collection that he enjoyed listening to, maybe he will be able to hear me and know I will never forget him, my brother, my friend you hold a piece of my heart that the years passing and no person will ever be able to replace
He was the first person that went with me to get a tattoo also, as much as I wanted to get it covered up, it is now forever going to on my left arm, more will be added onto it in his memory
This really sucks and it all seems to be hitting me again like it just happened
But for some reason I know it will take a long time for me to truely know he is gone
I love you Mikey, you were the best, I know we will see each other again one day
Also to those people who read this and know people who have a problem with a substance please get them help, get them your love, let them know you care, let them know there are so many more things to look forward to in life, yes I was down the path once and I am glad that I dropped the habit. Life is short, dont take it for granted, we only live once so enjoy it