bored and boring
So I'm sitting in this huge new library at my school which is the first time i've had a chance to use it since it's been finished. All new computers, all yuppy looking, I sort of miss the stuffy old library that should have been out of the 60's... complete with study room that looked like intearation rooms... it's all impersonal now.
I'm sneaking music in from the little built in speakers in the monitor, I think I scared off the guy next to me with Azure Ray...yeah... i have.
I still have about an hour to kill and theres plenty of computers around, so I dont think i'll be kicked off anytime soon, so perhaps this will be one of those long entries everyone else has done lately... maybe i'll write a little more and decided to stop. in anycase, i'm bored.
This last few weeks have been really great, especially the last few days. I'm still scared about my realtionship and my future plans (if those plans will happen or if I'll go it alone at first)... but I welcome it. I'm happy for the first time in forever, honestly happy. I have someone that really cares for me. I look at her and melt... I've never felt so honest and pure as i do now... ever. Which leads me to the other reason life is great, I'm working on music... a lot. I'm involved in several projects as well as writting songs with Kirstin, arranging parts like I know what i'm doing, and it actually sounds good. I'm in the midst of starting up my digital audio studio class, which gave me a free copy of PRO TOOLS. I need to crack it and go completly insane. Record an album in my bedroom. I've been thinking about that lately actually, I have all the songs I want to put on it, I have the way I'm starting and finishing it, I need to find a cello player and then it will be all but done. Hell, I even gots me a title.
I feel that everything I've done and am doing is completly correct for me, it's totally honest and without reservation that I say, "I'm right".
I'm sneaking music in from the little built in speakers in the monitor, I think I scared off the guy next to me with Azure Ray...yeah... i have.
I still have about an hour to kill and theres plenty of computers around, so I dont think i'll be kicked off anytime soon, so perhaps this will be one of those long entries everyone else has done lately... maybe i'll write a little more and decided to stop. in anycase, i'm bored.
This last few weeks have been really great, especially the last few days. I'm still scared about my realtionship and my future plans (if those plans will happen or if I'll go it alone at first)... but I welcome it. I'm happy for the first time in forever, honestly happy. I have someone that really cares for me. I look at her and melt... I've never felt so honest and pure as i do now... ever. Which leads me to the other reason life is great, I'm working on music... a lot. I'm involved in several projects as well as writting songs with Kirstin, arranging parts like I know what i'm doing, and it actually sounds good. I'm in the midst of starting up my digital audio studio class, which gave me a free copy of PRO TOOLS. I need to crack it and go completly insane. Record an album in my bedroom. I've been thinking about that lately actually, I have all the songs I want to put on it, I have the way I'm starting and finishing it, I need to find a cello player and then it will be all but done. Hell, I even gots me a title.
I feel that everything I've done and am doing is completly correct for me, it's totally honest and without reservation that I say, "I'm right".