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something has been bothering me lately. it's like an overbearing sense of worry. i have no idea where it came from.
life has been crazy, it's been a heck of a ride thse last couple of weeks. i think we go through phases or maybe semi-phases in life. i can look back and say, "i remember when i thought that," or "i remember when i used to do that all the time," etc. being conscious of that makes me worry. it makes me worry that this is just another phase. just like the last one and the one before that. it worries me because sometimes i am happy and it's not a single situation, it's just a general happiness with the way life is going.
sometimes things are just phases and sometimes things stick with you. i want this to stick with me. life is good and i am happy about that. it's not perfect and it's not always happy in itself. but i like the way things are going for the most part and i would like to keep as much of that around as possible.
i worry too much. in fact, none of this makes a ton of sense to me now that i've written it. but i think maybe someone will relate. if not, then, well, whatever.
i had a conversation lately with someone about love and marriage and all that. i don't really want to write a bunch about it, but i will admit that she made me think. hopefully i did the same. i like the idea that God directs some of our relationships. that maybe the person we marry isn't coincidental or happenstance. i like to think that there is one person out there that is the pinnical of what will make me happy and that i am the same for them. but maybe i'm wrong.
sometimes i think that i think too much. make sense? i think that i have too many thoughts on too many things that are deep and require too much thinking.
haha. i think that was a dumb thought.
starbucks is busy today.
life has been crazy, it's been a heck of a ride thse last couple of weeks. i think we go through phases or maybe semi-phases in life. i can look back and say, "i remember when i thought that," or "i remember when i used to do that all the time," etc. being conscious of that makes me worry. it makes me worry that this is just another phase. just like the last one and the one before that. it worries me because sometimes i am happy and it's not a single situation, it's just a general happiness with the way life is going.
sometimes things are just phases and sometimes things stick with you. i want this to stick with me. life is good and i am happy about that. it's not perfect and it's not always happy in itself. but i like the way things are going for the most part and i would like to keep as much of that around as possible.
i worry too much. in fact, none of this makes a ton of sense to me now that i've written it. but i think maybe someone will relate. if not, then, well, whatever.
i had a conversation lately with someone about love and marriage and all that. i don't really want to write a bunch about it, but i will admit that she made me think. hopefully i did the same. i like the idea that God directs some of our relationships. that maybe the person we marry isn't coincidental or happenstance. i like to think that there is one person out there that is the pinnical of what will make me happy and that i am the same for them. but maybe i'm wrong.
sometimes i think that i think too much. make sense? i think that i have too many thoughts on too many things that are deep and require too much thinking.
haha. i think that was a dumb thought.
starbucks is busy today.